random thoughts

pt. 6 - have you ever asked yourself-?

Have you ever asked yourself what that one specific person is doing right now?

Like have you ever just not minded your own business and started to think about what they are doing in that moment right now? If he/she is also doing what ever you're doing? Or what he/she is thinking about, what he/she is feeling and why he/she is feeling like that?

I was thinking about this a lot lately. To be honest I am always thinking about that one specific person. What is she doing right now while I am writing this? She might be asleep but she could also be on the dancefloor. She could also be just lying in her bed. She could be writing too, like I am and maybe she could be planning her future with her best friend. I wonder if she is feeling sad right now. I wonder if something happened to her that she would be happy about. I am thinking too much about her, I know that but I am interested. I am interested in her. And at the moment I can't do anything than just speculating about what she may be thinking, what she may be doing and what she may be feeling. In the back of my head I am always hoping that she may be thinking about me too. I am always hoping that she may be doing the same as I am, that we're connected through that. I am always hoping that she is feeling okay, that she doesn't need to suffer from nobody knows what.
I want to get to know her. I want to get near to her and feel whatever she is feeling. I want to just be with her. Living through everything she is living through. Share every moment she would've spent alone. I want to help her when she isn't feeling well. I want to know so much right now. Right now she may be sleeping, I am sure. But right now I am thinking about her.