random thoughts

the end - you (alternative bonus)

I may had found someone new
It was you
You
You were the girl which was describing herself as 'a random person'
You were random, I can agree.
But let me tell you what you were too
You were amazingly talented
You told me that you loved to write
You told me that you loved to play the piano
You told me that you loved to play the ukulele
You told me that you liked to draw
You even said that you liked to sing some day
You said you loved to read
You were amazingly talented, for sure
You were the aesthetic kind of girl
The derpy kind of girl
The "I try so hard to live my life to it's fullest" kind of girl
The struggling kind of girl who liked to rant about things
The deep thinking kind of girl who loved to talk about things with a deeper meaning
And you know, you were that kind of girl I used to love so much
I wanted to know everything about you
On the first glance you seemed totally made for me.
It was the perfect match.
But was it?
No it wasn't. All I know now is that you weren't the perfect match for me.
I spent so many seconds,
minutes,
hours,
nights
and days thinking about you.
I spent so much time with you talking
So much time enjoying your presence
So much time just staring at you
So much time telling you how much I loved you
I gave you everything I thought you'd deserved
It just felt like we were meant to meet each other
It just felt like you just had to post that one story about that old silly TV series I used to watch
It just felt like we should have talked about everything that would've come into our minds
It felt like everything that happened should have happened

I thought it was you
You
The beautiful open minded girl who was into all the things I was
The beautiful girl who tried to learn new things, to discover everything
The girl I wanted to get to know
The girl I never had the chance to met
The girl I thought about when I fell asleep, when I woke up, when I went to school
when I literally did ANYTHING.

Its funny how long you stood in my mind, even though it ended a long time before it started.

But now I know
It wasn't you,
it never will be
You.