Depressiety
I was bad again today..
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
To say to you, that I was bad again today..
I don't want to feel like a burden,
But it feels like the burden is on my shoulders.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
To say to you how much I need your comfort.
To ask you for help and ease my state of mind.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
How much I cry in the middle of the night,
How much my tears stain the pillows as I am alone.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
How much I need your love and compassion as I drench in my own blood
As I sit on the egde of the bed, watching the blade cascade across my skin.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
How much I hate my every being.
How much I hate the words and the thoughts I think.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
That I am tired.. My eyes are sunken in, and my eyelids can never seem to fall.
I am stuck in a restless sleep ridden dream.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
How much I am dying inside.
I swear I haven't lied to you.. It just feels like I have been denied your presence.
Even though it was me that pushed you aside.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
How much my feelings collide..
Its not a joyride.
My eyes are weary from the lack of sleep.
I am divided in my thoughts.
And I have cried myself awake.. Because sleep illudes me.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
To say that I am not sober..
Over ...over, Mayday.. Mayday..
I don't feel like the owner of my own thoughts.
I was bad again today..
But I can't bring myself to say..
I am sorry Mom..And Im sorry Dad, But I can't find the strength to get up today..
I just want to runaway from it all.
But I can't..
I was bad again today..
But I... Can't bear the weight of my own.. mistakes...
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Spoken Word and Songs (2013-2018)
PoetryA collection of songs and poems I have written over time, they have my collection of things I have written from 2013 to 2018, The newer things are within the second poetry book; Spoken word 2019 I will be making a new one once the new year rolls ov...