Barbed Wire Tattoo - Jungkook gang au

29 - Love

CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

I wish I could have taken a picture of Jungkook's smile after I spoke. I would look back at it whenever I was sad. The way his eyes smiled before he even moved his lips, and then when he finally showed off his cute bunny teeth his eyes creased into thin lines. His cheeks went rosy and he looked like a baby, except a baby with swirling black ink coiling around his body.

"Kris," His hand caressed my cheek, "You asked me to give you time a few days ago. Are you sure?" His smile faltered, his face displaying some worry and intense thought. I nodded in response to his question. "No I need to hear you say it."

"What's the point in making you miserable when I know I can just make us happy? I miss you, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about you. It's important for us to not forget the past, but we also can't live today based on the past. I love you, and I want to love you. I don't know anything about love, and the thought of loving anyone else feels wrong." Jungkook's smile returned to his face. He stood up off the bed holding his fists up next to his shoulders in excitement. He had the biggest, cutest look in his eyes, he kept on covering his face and then looking at me. I sat up on the edge of the bed, tilting my head at him. "What?"

"You have no idea how fucking happy I am right now." He walked in between my legs holding my face in his hands. "I love you so fucking much." He kissed me briefly before dropping to his knees hugging me around my waist. His head resting against my stomach. I felt something wet against my shirt, he was crying.

"No, why are you crying?" I pulled his face to look at me, he kept his hands on my waist as he looked at me still smiling.

"I just love you." I laughed softly kissing the tears off his cheeks.

"You've turned soft Jeon."

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All the boys were out when we got back, it was almost 6 pm by the time we got to the house. The boys had gone out to meet with some potential allies, guns are in high command seeing as Kang is no longer distributing. I was laying in Jungkook's bed scrolling through all the pictures on his phone. It was cute, there were a lot from many years ago. The boys looked quite different as the years went by, maybe it was the added tattoos or the dying of their hair. Either way they looked good. There was one picture of Jungkook and Taehyung asleep together. Jungkook was in a blue hoodie laying on his back while Tae was cuddled into his side laying on his stomach. It was really cute, my two baby boys, I sent the picture to my phone setting it as my background before Jungkook walked into the room.

"Ima' shower babe." He said walking into the bathroom, I nodded even though he was already behind a closed door. After I heard the shower turn on I walked to the bathroom door. I cracked it open poking my head in seeing Jungkook throwing his shirt onto the ground. I frowned seeing the healing marks along his sides but his stomach was getting chubby again. He noticed me and smiled softly. "What's up?" He asked leaning against the counter, I walked in completely standing in front of him.

The mirror was beginning to fog up as he held me by my hips. I ran my hands along his shoulders and down his chest, his skin is soft like silk. It's hard to keep my hands off of him. My hands ran down to his stomach and over his sides gently. He sucked in a shaky breath as he moved my hair over my shoulder.

"Kris."

I kissed his lips with a peck before kissing his cheek, then his jaw and down to his collarbones. I knelt down as I kissed down his chest, his breathing was getting heavier and more uneven. My fingers ran along his sides again, my eyes tearing up. I caused that, I caused him to be so hurt that he felt alone. I made him feel unloved, I broke him.

"I'm sorry Jungkook." I said looking up at him, he stroked the top of my head shaking his head.

"Kris, you left because I fucked up. I deserved that, this was all my choice." I knelt closer to his skin leaving soft kisses up and down his sides. His hands never leaving my hair as I stood up to meet his face again. He ran his thumb over my lips before kissing me sweetly. "It isn't your fault. None of this is on you babygirl. None of it."

I nodded before kissing him briefly again. He moved my hair over my shoulders letting it all rest against my back, tucking hair behind both my ears he kissed my forehead.

"I'll let you shower." I said his lips still against me.

"I love you."

"I love you to Jungkook."

this book is almost over...im going to cry