The Complete Mess // L.H

Chapter 5

Luke's pov.

"Why are you helping me?" She cried silently against my shoulder.

"I don't deserve your help. It my fault I deserve to feel like this"

"Jamie... Over the past week I haven't been able to get you off my mind... And I've realised something..." I sighed

"What?"

"We shouldn't have left you behind" I said "you should have come with us"

She stayed silent not replying for a few minutes.

"You left me with no one." She said hoarsely.

"I know. And I'm so sorry." I pleaded hoping she would forgive me. "Tell me what happened... You can trust me. I just want the old Jamie back" I told her.

The Jamie I fell madly in love with.

"I can't tell you...you'll hate me..." She whispered sitting up and crossing her legs.

I followed her lead crossing my legs and sitting in front of her so our knees were touching.

"I could never hate you. Please just tell me." I said

"Okay... But promise me you won't tell the other boys... Not yet at least"

"I promise" I said holding up my pinky.

She chuckled slightly before curling her pinky round mine gently.

"Two months after you left... I-it happened." She stuttered.

"What? What happened Jamie?" I asked. "Take your time, you don't have to rush"

She was silent for a little while.

"T-they r-raped me" she whispered before covering her face and crying quietly into her hands.

I couldn't believe what I had just heard. Part of me was angry and wanted to kill whoever did that to her. But the other part of me wanted to cry for her as she has been taken advantage of and treated terribly,

All while we were away living her dreams leaving her behind.

Jamie's pov.

I looked up from beneath my hands wiping the tears under my eyes.

Luke hadn't reacted yet. He just stared at me in shock. His jaw started to clench and a deadly look crossed over his features.

"I-I told you- I said you would hate me if I told you" I cried wishing I never told him.

"What? Jamie no. I'm not angry at you. I certainly do not hate you for this. It was not your fault at all. It was whoever did that to you and also my fault" Luke said looking as if he was going to cry.

"How I-is it your fault?" I stuttered confused.

"Because I wasn't there to protect you" he said

"It wasn't your fault. It was mine" I told him. "It would never have happened if I wasn't so worthless"

"Don't you dare ever say that again" Luke shouted suddenly angry.

"You listen to me Jamie Irwin, you are not worthless."

"Luke" I whispered sadly. "Can- can I have a hug?" I asked wanting to feel some type of human comfort.

"You don't have to ask Jamie." He said laying down and pulling me with him so I was curled into his chest listening to the rise and fall of his breathing.

"Who... Did it?" He suddenly asked

"Um- T-tyler and some of his friends. They got me after class on- on a Friday... They dragged me under the football pitch bleachers..." I started

"You don't have to tell me everything if you don't want to" Luke said telling that I was obviously struggling.

"Okay." I said snuggling further into him just wanting to sleep. I felt safe lying with Luke, I hadn't felt safe for a long time.

A/n I know this is really short but the next chapter will be longer please vote/comment xx