Two years have passed since i was captured and i was no closer to escaping than someone finding me, fortunately i am now allowed to walk around the base with an escort. Some nights i feel my father trying to reach me but just barely failing… other nights i feel completely alone like Megatron forgot about me. This was one of those nights, i laid awake staring at the ceiling as i tried to reach my father but failing… I stayed up all night and Arcee noticed i was tired. “Hey Lilac you ok? You seem tired…” i rolled my eyes and growled at her like my normal day routine, even if i told her what was wrong she wouldn't understand, she believes my father is evil and wants to hurt me but i know better then that… i think… “Im fine for being a Decepticon trapped in this pit! I can't handle this anymore!!! For all i know people could be dead!!” Arcee put a reassuring servo on my shoulder trying to comfort me but it wasn't working, if anything it was making me angrier, and before i could understand what i was going i ran out of my room to the top of the base to watch the sunset tears falling. “Lilac… you shouldn't be up here without a escort…” i didn't even bother to turn around and face Smokescreen, he was the reason i was in this excuse for a base… i growled and moved closer to the edge of the cliff, hmm maybe if i jumped off the cliff i would be able to get away, wait they have my t-cog so i have no weapons or form of escaping. “Go away Smokescreen… no one wants you up here right now, and seeing as i am the only one who cares right now i want you to go away…” He didn't listen to me but that’s not to big of a surprise, what was a surprise is that he sat really close to me, closer then i would have liked… “Smokescreen backup before i push you off the cliff… I may not have weapons but i still have strength…” Smokescreen didn't listen and snickered looking at me. “Wow Buckethead really doesn't care what happens to you does he? That's a shame a femme like you deserves to be treated the right way.” i growled at the nickname they gave my father, i have heard many times but it still turns my rotors whenever i hear it. I gave Smokescreen a slight shove as a warning telling him to back off or else, he didn't listen to say the least. “Buckethead trained you well, no wonder you are his prized warrior. Hmm are you his daughter because i seem to forget whether you are his daughter or just another lacky.” A tear escaped my optics as he said these things and i ran back into the base and stopped in the middle of the medbay seeing Ratchet give me curious look of concern and amusement. “Something wrong Lilac?” my optics twitched hearing Optimus Prime behind me, that primus forsaken prime. The same prime that set my father on the path he is on today. A year ago i found out he wasn't dead, in fact he was the opposite, unfortunately he was very much alive and well. “As a matter of fact Prime there is!!” I turned around hands on my hip joints glaring at him. “I have been here for two years now! Two fragging years!!! I have had no news about my father, no news to see if he is actually looking for me and no help from you!!!” I didn't realize what i was doing until i did it, losing my temper i punched Optimus in the stomach plating sending him backwards a bit, my anger turning to pure rage. “Lilac the only reason you are still here is because Megatron has said he could care less about you and that we could keep you.” I stared at the Prime after he finished speaking my spark breaking into a million shards, it wasn't true… it couldn't be… “Y.. Your lying!! He cares about me he is looking for me!!!” Tears threatened to fall from my optics but i held them back, it couldn't be true.. it just couldn't… “I am sorry Lilac it is true…” A tear fell from my optic so i went to my cell and stayed there not drinking my rations of energon. That night was another sleepless night, i laid awake holding back tears when i got an idea, if i stole my t-cog back and used a groundbridge to get out of here maybe i could find my way back to the Nemesis without my communications and weapons… i smiled as i devised my whole plan, when i would leave, how i would make sure they wouldn't follow me, and what time would be perfect. Having a plan of escape i feel into a dreamless slumber, replenishing my energy levels. Today was the day, the day i was finally going to escape this blasted pit of pain, i woke up seeing an energon cube next my berth and drank it stretching my legs out as i went over my plan once more before heading into the medbay. As night fell i headed back to my cell early and drank the energon waiting for me there, then i fell asleep needing all the energy i can get for my no doubt long journey ahead. I woke up in the middle of the night, and opened my cell door quietly seeing no Autobot in sight which made me smile. “Thing about Decepticons, no matter how long you keep them if you don't gain their trust they will never turn.” i whispered as i walked into the medbay seeing again no one around but my t-cog sitting on the desk where it had been for weeks now… i quietly walked to it and grabbed it smiling thinking on the Nemesis and how much i miss it. When i found the groundbridge controls i looked around for supplies for a time bomb, luckily i found them and was easily able to make one, thank you Breakdown. I smiled never thinking his boring bomb making lessons would actually pay off in a million years. When i had set the time bomb for one minute i set the coordinates for the place i was captured at, if i am lucky a Decepticon will be patrolling through there and find me…
