dysphoria - joshler

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i heard noises coming from all around me

what is going on?

i tried to open my eyes but nothing would work.

i felt someone touch my hand

why would someone be touching my hand?

why can't i see anything?

where am i?

i felt a sharp pain in my chest

then again

and again

then my eyes opened and the pain in my chest went away

i was in a small room

there were men with defibrillators in their hands

maybe that's the pain i felt in my chest

"where am i? and why am i here?" i asked anxiously

"you're in a hospital, you attempted to kill yourself and your neighbor here saved you.

i look around the white room and saw a boy sat on a chair, he looked anxious. he was very beautiful, his fluffy brown hair and sad eyes made me wonder who this boy was

he waved shyly at me

"can you remember your name?" the doctor said

"my name is joshua william dun" i replied

"when were you born?" he asked

"18th june" i answered

"okay we'll be back soon to check on you" he spoke and walked out of the room

there was an awkward silence in the room

i don't even know who this man is but he apparently just saved my life

"how did you find me?" i asked the stranger

"i only recently just moved in the neighborhood and i saw you outside smoking so i thought id come and say hello, but then i got worried because you looked sad so i wanted to come and see if you were okay." he said

"so who are you?" i asked confusedly

"my name's tyler joseph and i live in 21 clancy way and i saved your life" he laughed nervously

"why did you try to kill yourself?" he asked with a sad look on his face

i sighed.

"i didn't try to kill myself, i was having a bad moment and i was self harming that's literally it." i didn't want to look at him just encase he was disappointed

"but you actually nearly died though" he scoffed

"i didn't mean to, sometimes it just gets out of hand." i sighed

"i understand" i spoke quietly

i looked at him confused "what do you mean?"

"i'm happy i saved you because now i know that we have at least one thing in common." he smiled

"don't you live with anyone?" tyler asked

"i moved from LA to columbus a few years ago so i've been on my own for a long time"

"you don't even have a cat" tyler scoffed

i smiled "ill get a cat then"

we both laughed and talked about ourselves for a while

i started to get really tired so i told tyler and he told me i should rest

i turned over on my really uncomfortable hospital bed and closed my eyes

after a while i drifted off to sleep.