dysphoria - joshler

6

"why's there drops of blood on your bathroom floor?" he asked

"uh"

his words echoed through my head

he told me i could talk to him if i needed anything

he's going to be mad at me

"josh?" his soft voice took me away from my thoughts

"uh i don't know" i replied too quickly for him to think i was telling the truth

"josh, you know i wont be angry just tell me what happened" he stood there waiting patiently for a reply

"i don't know i was just getting changed and i couldn't stop thinking, then one thing led to another" i spoke

"did you clean it and put a bandage on it?" he asked

"yeah of course i did" i answered

"do you still want to come to mine?"

"yeah i'm okay"

i picked my bag up and put it over my one shoulder

we walked out and i closed the door behind me

i turned around and tyler was stood there inches away from me

i could feel his breath on my skin

he looked down and coughed "we should probably get going, i told brendon we'd be ten minutes"

"uh yeah right lets go" i spoke scratching the back of my head

we walked downstairs as if nothing had just happened

i made sure i had everything i needed and then we left

i lit another cigarette as i stepped off of my porch

"so what's brendon like?" i broke the awkward silence

"he's very hyper active because he has adhd and lets just say he has a boy over at least every other night" he laughed

"oh, so you don't get a lot of sleep then?" i spoke

"barely" he laughed

"so how far away is your place?" i asked

"right here" he pointed

it was a small house, painted white bricks on the outside and a plain black roof

"it looks cute"

tyler giggled

"you can smoke inside mind, brendon smokes"

"thank god" i laughed

tyler walked up to the door and unlocked it

i walked in after him and he closed the door behind me

"tyler broooooooo" an unfamiliar voice called out

"yes brendonnnnn" tyler called back

"come hereeeeeee" he shouted

"alright" tyler walked into the room

two seconds later he popped his head back around

"come in" he spoke

i laughed and walked in

tyler sat down and motioned for me to sit down next to him

"is this the josh you were telling me about?" the boy i think is called brendon spoke

"no brendon this is david" tyler said in a serious tone

he held his hand out "nice to meet you david"