Reaching out for someone to care
To care enough to hold my withered body
Dust off my bones with affection
Water my crumbled heart with love
I'm reaching out for someone to care
I'm fading away like a candle by the open window
I am reduced to bones and flesh
This numbness fills my gut like I've swallowed a rock
I can't swallow the pain
I can't throw up the pain
It's choking me and I'm in dire need of help
Someone please care enough to hold my hand
Guide me out of this dark pit
Help me breath again
Help me smile again
I look at my phone
My contact list consists of people whose dictionary does not have depression
And people who have last spoken to me 3 months ago
And people who tell me "stop being sad"
And people who can't be here to help me
I look at those around me
and realize they are the ones who have pushed my head down the water
Sometimes I used to be happy and sometimes sad
But now I'm sad at all times and the occassional happy days are gone
And the mask I used to put on is gone
It has melted like the candle near the window
I lay bare my emotions
My sadness is visible to everyone
But nobody seems to care
Nobody cares and I want someone to care
Because I'm ending it all soon
I'm lingering on the tip of the rope of hope
I'm slipping away and into eternal emptiness
I'm afraid and lonely, I can't cope
I've been hurting for long
Soon I'll be gone
I knew it all along
That nobody would pull me away from the path of death
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The Path to Death
PoetryThese are free verse poems that I have written when I was at my lowest point, trying to figure out what I want more, to love or to die. I am battling depression and maybe I will get better, maybe not. But writing down what I'm feeling lessens my b...
