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chapter 3

The next day I woke up drinking two glasses of water and having a piece of toast before heading out. I decided to jog to my gym, wearing a sweatshirt and trash bag, you have to look your absolute thinnest. Showing off all your toned muscles, and tanning to have such radiant skin. It's kind of ridiculous but I mean.. it pays off, you look fucking amazing on that runway and that is the most important thing. The week went by rather quickly, either I was working out, practicing my walk and poses, or tanning.

That leads us to now, before we line up to walk the runway. Thankfully I haven't run into anyone and as I receive last minute touch ups i can't help but wonder how tonight will play out. If all goes right I'll relax when I get on the runway, I heard Rohnnie Radke is supposed to be sitting in front row... I'll just watch out for him.

"Are you ready?" Nikki asks? Her hands shaking just like mine. This will be the biggest moment of our carrier. "I feel like I'm going to throw up" she smiles.

"Same, I'm so fucking nervous" I reply, flinching when I hear "line up". I'm seventh to walk and as my corset clings to my body I pull my boobs up, wanting them to look as good as possible. Youngblood begins playing and Goosebumps cover my body. I'm ready, this is my show not theirs. I run this shit, I'm the one everyone one will be looking at. Taking I deep breath I move forward following as the girls in front of me walk onto the stage. I can hear Luke's voice, he sounds so much more mature. I bite my lip nervously as I walk onto the stage, a smiling spreading across my face as I walk. My show.

I can feel people watching me, my hands moving to my hips I can't help but sing along. No one is going to ruin this for me, not even Luke as he turns around, looking directly at me. In an instant he stops, his face going pale before singing again. Quickly looking away I search for Rohnnie not seeing him. Once I reach to the end I switch the weight from my left to right leg, turning around to walk back towards the stage. I could feel Luke watching me, then as I see Calum my heart races. Yes, there he is, after two years he's grown up so much. His mouth drops once he connects my gaze and though his fingers move the bass stops playing.

Seeing him brings back all those times with Calum that I had forgotten about. His stupid jokes and the way he laughs, oh he's so damn perfect. And Luke, my has he really grown into his shoulders! They have all changed so much, I hope for the better. As soon as I know I am behind the wall I start taking off my clothes. We have 45 seconds to change before walking back down the runway. No matter how much clothing we have to take off and put on. Maybe tonight won't be so bad, I don't feel as angry or upset about seeing them now. I'm gonna have some fun tonight no matter what.

"Did you hear Calum and Luke mess up?" One of the girls giggles, "I wonder who made them do that" a slight blush spreads across my face. I wonder who it could have possibly been.

Moving along begins to play as the second round of clothing starts, my instincts are of course to sing along. Plus it won't hurt to rub it in Luke's face. As I walk back out I loosen up, mouthing the words watching Calum as he sings. God damn he's so fucking fine. "Thinking bout you lots lately, have you been eating breakfast alone like me?" I mouth soon pointing towards Luke while moving my hips facing him as I mouth "or are you moving along". turning around I blow a kiss to the camera, feeling like such a bad ass bitch for what I just did. My attention goes to Calum as I head back, blushing as he sings. There's no doubt in my mind that I had feelings for Calum , even now and even then. There is also no doubt that I had feelings for Luke, that meant absolutely nothing to him apparently. After I was gone he went back to being his old self. How the fuck do you like me now Lucas.

After pointing to him I was nervous for the last run, it slipped my mind for a second that I will possibly have to interact with them after this. Next is for the glorious angel wings, mine are gold, because I don't deserve anything less. They will work wonderfully with Luke's boots, his fancy shiny gold boots. As I fix the straps I begin walking out to Babylon. Do you remember that Rihanna walk she did on the 2012 Victoria Secret Fashion Show? Well if you don't look it up, as I walk slowly, fixing myself as Calum goes into the chorus.

"Burn to bright now the fires gone, watch it a fall dow.. Babylon" as the music drops that's when I strut. Mimicking the exact walk rihanna did, I had been practicing all week. Of course it wasnt nearly as smooth, no one could slay everyone the way she did. As I got to the front, I stop moving my butt out as I turn around facing back to the camera and wink. I smile hoping that it looked as good as I wanted it to, walking back toward the exit. When I see Calum my smile widens as I see the look on his face, and Ashton's, and Luke's. Hopefully they remember me and aren't just gaping at everyone. That wouldn't be as satisfying as this is now. My hand moves down calums arms as I walk past singing the words with him, after all Babylon is his song. Tonight will be good, hopefully, unless I missed him smiling.

Once I'm behind the wall again I take the wings off, they are definitely not the lightest thing to wear. I roll my shoulders feeling relief from taking the wings off. Now was time to get ready for the after party.