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chapter 5

"I'd actually really like that" I smile, going over to the bathroom door. Nina think about this properly. You are taking 20 steps back from where you were. But I want this, I want him hes here I have him right here. If hes yours he will stay but you know you are not ok. He needs to wait.

"Great" he pauses walking towards me and grabs my hand before letting it go. Clearing his throat, "Shall we" he says with a sly smile. Oh his smile. I walk out first, a few seconds later followed by Calum.

"Callum!" I hear a familiar squeak, as I turn I see Nikki with her hands already on calums arm. Glancing to me he smiles, I turn back around hoping he will shove her off. Walking through the crowd I reach the exit, waiting to see if a Callum appears.

I waited for ten minutes, if he was serious why would it take longer. As I go to walk off feel a hand on mine. "are you ready" he Huff's, smiling as he takes a deep breath.

"Did you run?"

"No..."

"Callum." I raise a brow.

"Yes, but that girl came up to me and she wasn't hard to get rid of but then I saw Luke and it got wierd and I told him I was  leaving but I wouldnt say with who and he got upset and then sierra was there and was confused so I ran away so let's go." He mumbles, looking around. Well ok then let's fucking leave.

"Take me away-" I'm cut off by someone   pulling my arm. I grit my teeth as I look down at the girl and smile

"Nina! Could we ask you a few questions!" A guy asks and I take a deep breath seeing the crow in the corner eyeing me. Turning my glare into a bright smile I turn around looking at the computer. You should thank them.

As they questioned me about what it is like being a model I could not help but glance back to not see him.

Sometimes I wish that more people would ask questions about me or not obvious questions ya know. It's the same ritualized questions.  "How did you start?" "Creeps" "what's it like" "boys" "my body" and that about sums up. As it comes to an end I smile politely giving them a hug. It was starting to get sloppier, by the I mean people were getting more intoxicated with alcohol and cocaine.

Standing myself up I tuck a strand of hair behind my ear and make my way through the crowd. This is boring. Returning to the bar my eyes scan the area, not seeing anyone important. I take a seat setting my purse on the table. Might as well get comfortable because I plan to be here for a long time. Ordering a water, i take a deep breath sitting up completely as I inhale, rolling my neck. Those shots from earlier was really starting to kick in at the moment and I can feel my body getting warmer. I'm startled by a girl sitting next to me. Her hair was brown and she looked Hawaiian, I scrunched my eyes as I continued to look at her.

"Sierra?" I mumble, her soft gaze looking at me. I watched her and Alex on the xfactor and I was a shit hard fan but after their first album I stopped really paying attention. I voted for them every week, I can not believe I'm sitting next to her right now.

She smiles slightly confused, "Hello, hi. Oh my gosh you are Nina! It's so nice to meet you how are you?" She says excitedly and as she leaned in to give me a hug a very familiar smell was on her. I cant help but inhale deeply, my brows furrowing, eyes closing. It was Luke, back on the bus as we were sitting in his bunk. Laughing quietly at small little things as he would play with my hair and I'd try not to stare into his eyes. He would pull at his lip ring when he would look at me to long. My brain switches quickly as we pull away, how does she know who I am? I ask myself, biting my lip.

"How is Alex?" I ask, not even thinking about the missing ring on her finger.

"There is no Alex" she breaths, Her small arms stretching infront of her. Unlike the small smile on her face I nearly choked on my water. They were perfect! They seemed perfect, it was Alex and Sierra, Sierra and Alex . Coughing slightly i try catching my breath. "Yeah he didnt work out after the xfactor and all, that was a while ago though" she giggles. Ordering two drinks.

"So who is it now?" I ask composing my self after nearly drowning. I was sad that they didnt work out but everything has an end for a reason. I hope who ever shes with now is perfect. Watching as she takes a drink of one glass she smiles.

"Luke" she grins widely as her eyes look at me. As I was about to ask which Luke, the devil himself makes his way towards the bar. He immediately goes to her, his hands moving to her waist as he leans downs to press his lips to hers.

My chest tightens seeing the way he kisses her, such happiness and passion. It was a movie kiss really, even though he is probably wasted. I stare longingly as he kisses her before pulling away, a large smile across his lips. They look so happy. They are happy nina. It's not until Luke stands up that he sees me, I could feel his gaze as I was still looking at Sierra. I wanted to vomit but all I can muff up is laughter. Nervous laughter and I shake my head, taking a sip of water.

"W-well it was so... so.. nice to meet you." I croak, my throat feeling dry as I stand to get up. I feel her hand on mine and flinch pulling away quickly. "I-i hope to see you some other t-time" i smile, looking over Luke for a second.

"Hey we are sitting over there, come sit with us" God how is she so fucking pretty, a part of me wants to knee him in the nuts and slap her and the other part wants to cry. " Ashton and mikey are over there-*

"Let her go." Luke mumbles and I clench my jaw, glaring at him. That's what you do best isnt it Luke? Just let people slip out of your life with no regret and no hesitation.

" well Sierra it is quite fortunate that you get to be loved by him, its heaven at first.... but be careful, because as you see he loves letting things go" I glare, smiling at her and nudge past his shoulder as I walk by. "Coward" I mumble to myself walking towards the exit. Ill leave by myself if I want to I dont need anyone going home with me tonight.

"Nina!" I hear from behind me, I was not going to stop for some other bullshit until I realised who it was. As I turned I saw his curly brown hair and his little ears. "Can I leave with you?"

"Please harold never actually live in the US" I mumble, not even realised I spoke my thoughts. The last thing I see before turning around into cameras was his smile, butterflies flew in my stomach as I walked through flashing lights.

I know you guys hate me I'm sorry. But, life. .