Tea for Teardrops

Today

Today, I screamed

It was more of a silent scream like
when you're screaming so loud, nothing comes out

But you can hear it all in your head

It hurt

I couldn't talk, couldn't possibly explain how much everything was too much, how it was breaking me

How do you explain being broken to someone?

My apologies

Humans don't break

They fracture

Like a bone or a rib

I'm proud of my heart

For holding in that scream for so long till I had the guts to let it go

It was made up of tragedy and particles of hopelessness and despair and all that cliche stuff about when you're so numb yet you feel it all, well I felt it all in that scream and every part of my body heard the sound of that silent scream as it resonated through the air and in my head and out of veins and it hurt, it hurt

and I just really need a cup of tea right now

Cuppa tea for my silent scream?