Tea for Teardrops

Can't Say

I know it's all my fault

The whispers and.the talk

What he does to me behind closed doors

His greedy hands wanting more

More than I can give

I know that I was asking for it

But I just wanted it all to stop

And when I tried to tell someone, I found that I

Couldn't talk

I know it's all my fault

The way he looks at me

They say I'm different and that I've changed

But when they ask me why.and what happened, I simply

Cannot say

I know that I should've fought harder

Should've tried to escape

But he pinned me down till I couldn't move

The silence was deafening

And all I saw was the paleness of the moon

He whispered to me to be a good girl and

Not say anything

I felt the blood

Creep between

My legs

I felt the rushing pain

And the tears that

Would not go away

They say I'm different and that I've changed

But when they ask me why.and what happened, I simply

Cannot say

I hide in the shadows and wait

I know I'm easy prey

But one day, I'll speak louder

Than my shame

And they'll hear me

They'll finally hear me

And I'll tell them everything

All the words that I couldn't speak

All the things he did to me

I remember the starry sky being so quiet that night

As it watched me drown alive

As I tried to call out a name

It simply watched and prayed

And after all these years, if you asked me if it was possible for someone to look past my scars and love me anyway,

I couldn't say