( DISCONTINUED ) Blackpink's Male Member (BlackVelvet + Others x Male Reader )

Chapter 3: Solo Song

Marcus POV

After I got to know Blackpink better, I get called by Manager nim.

I follow him into a producing room and he tells me to sit down.
"Marcus, as you know Blackpink just had a comeback right?" He asks me even though the answer is obvious.
"Ne"
" Due to that, we decided that you are going to debut with a solo song that is going to be added to their album." He waits a bit before continuing, so I could process everything.
"So basically,  I have to compose, produce and choreograph a song?" I ask but I have an idea of the answer I'm gonna be given.
"Yes, we are short on people that do those, as a lot of our groups are coming back. The deadline for the song is in 1 week, then we will film the mv. So work hard." And with that he leaves the room, closing the door.
Well it seems like I should start.

For the past 3 hours, I work on the lyrics until I think they are good enough. I also choose a title for the song.

It Doesn't Matter

[Intro]
Yeah
My name is, huh uh, SUGA

[Verse 1]
Every night, I go to bed past midnight
The wave of sleepiness that came to me
Moving to my workplace, the feeling
Of having no inspiration
I’m musician, nothing’s going to change
Playing at the top, with other idols
Coughing at my existence
If you ask me, “What is your real identity?”
No hesitation
I can give you an explanation
But there’s no need to do so
If you’re going to judge me with what you hear, what you see, you’re going to be wrong
Listening my music
I stole away young girls’ nights, like insomnia
Those guys are insane, using idols as a reason
Give me cold shoulders
But a reborn hip hop lad like me, can create music than can rival with monsters to fight back
I am written over with being idols’ mistakes, this generation musician
Deep to my bones, I’m a d-boy
In this circle filled with hypocrisy
I will hold on to my conviction

[Chorus]
I don't give a fuck (Hey Click Bang!)
Deep to my bones I’m d-boy (Hey Click Bang!)
I will hold on to my conviction (Hey Click Bang!)
Even if you’re going to accuse me, tear me down
I don’t give a fuck
That’s right, I don’t give a fuck (Hey Click Bang!)
Deep to my bones I’m d-boy (Hey Click Bang!)
I will hold on to my conviction (Hey Click Bang!)
Even if you’re going to accuse me, tear me down
I don’t give a fuck
That’s right, I don’t give a fuck

[Verse 2]
I- I- I’m out of me
On top of my, my strong beat, I lost myself
I almost forget I am an idol
What am I doing right now, my job, living as a rapper
The beat I came up with, lyrics closely linked by the rhyme
What’s on my body that replaces the tattoo marks my attitude
My flow is like Kama Sutra
Toying with you on my beat
Stop being so pleased about yourself, our size are different
If we compare, you just a plain white blouse collar
Even if I help you up, you’ll fall the next minute
Go fuck yourself

[Outro]
Still sucking your thumb huh?
Still sucking your thumb huh?
Did you see what we’ve done huh?
2Cool 4Skool album debut sold on average of thirty thousand copies huh?
Thirty thousand copies huh?
Who is the hottest one among the rookies huh?
Just go hide behind your keyboard, live a life comforting yourself with lies

WHAT!

I think I should write a calm song as well, so that fans don't think I'm a badass because I'm most definitely not one.

Begin

[Verse 1]
When I was fifteen years old, I had nothing
The world was too big and I was small
Now I can’t even imagine now
I was scentless and completely empty
I pray

[Verse 2]
Love you my friend, I’ve got sense
I discovered emotions, I became me
So I’m me
Now I’m me

[Hook]
You make me begin
You make me begin
You make me begin
(Smile with me, smile with me
Smile with me)
You make me begin
(Smile with me, smile with me)

[Verse 2]
I can’t take it anymore
Because you are crying
I want to cry in your place
Although I can’t

[Hook]
You make me begin
You make me begin
You make me begin
(Cry with me, cry with me
Cry with me)
You make me begin
(Cry with me, cry with me)

[Verse 4]
I feel like dying
When my friend is sad
When my friend is sick
It hurts more than when I’m sick

[Verse 5]
Friend let’s cry, cry, cry and get it over with
I don’t know much about sadness
But I’m gonna cry anyway
Because, because

[Hook]
You made me again
You made me again
You made me again
(Fly with me, fly with me
Fly with me)
You made me again
(Fly with me, fly with me)

[Outro]
You make me begin
You made me again

When I'm finished writing this song, I feel tears running down my face, remembering the horrible past I wrote the song on.
When I was 15, I was what you could describe as a Bully. I bullied anyone that pissed me off, if you said one single thing about me, I would bully you for the rest of the year. However I still had one friend that would try to help me and make me stop doing what I did. But one day, I done something so bad, that even my bestfriend couldn't stay with me anymore. I got mad that they abandoned me and had a really bad argument with them.

FlashBack

I run to her house as fast as I can when I hear the news.
No! Please God! Please!
I don't care if we argued a few days ago, if anything happened to her, it is all my fault.

My fault.

I reach her house, I knock desperately and in less than 5 seconds, her mom opens the door.
"Where is she?" I ask panicking,  and I notice the sad tone on the mother's voice when she speaks.
"She left a letter, read it and you will know" she then hands me a letter, with daughter's beautiful handwriting.
A beautiful handwriting to a beautiful girl.
I open the letter with shaking hands.

Mom, Dad ...
I'm so sorry for the suffering I may cause because of this. I don't feel like I exist right now. All you guys do is work and talk about Marcus. I'm running away to one of my bestfriend's house I'm going to live there for as long as possible and I'm going after my dream of being an idol. I hope the two of your recover.

From Your Lovely Daughter:
                                     Kim Yerim