M.E Is Not Me

A Little Disagreement

Serena felt Alissia’s body freeze as she let go of her to query why “Alissia what’s wrong we're gonna be dancing together!” “It’s not that..” she spoke quietly “Look”. Serena turned her head to follow Alissia’s fixed gaze, as she did she mimicked the same look as they stared in horror at Camilla who was blocking Arianna’s way as she exited the small stage, they couldn’t hear what she was saying from they were stood but she was screaming at their teacher and clearly she was mad, very mad as her face burned scarlet and her arms flung in all directions, Henry ran over to join the two girls as he laughed out of shock placing his arm protectively on Alissia’s waist. Serena spun her head back to her friend and began to say something when she noticed how her two classmates were stood together “Are you guys.. Like.. A thing now?” the couple turned and smiled at each other “Yes” Alissia confessed “Yes we are”. Instead of congratulating her Serena pulled her to one side stone face and grabbed her arms to shake sense into her “Alissia please I’m begging you I know you like him, I could tell the first time you saw him but you didn’t see how mad she got today, she threatened all kinds of stuff, worse than she’s ever done before… Just think about this, Odette and Henry? I’m scared for you Alissia..” Alissa felt a pang in the pit of her stomach, Camilla was strong, she had power and a way of words that seemed to be able to make her friends do anything, it was like people just obeyed her, friend or non-friend, she was so clever she could make people believe she was something even if she wasn’t, but she wasn’t going to let her control her, Henry was different right? She’d never felt like this about a guy, there was a spark there that drew her too him and she couldn’t ignore it. She was not about to be dictated by Camilla’s follower. “No Serena, this is my choice, Camilla’s just going to have to deal with it” Serena’s eyes grew wider as more fear filled them, she paused for a second thinking and then begun again “Okay.. I know I can’t stop you guys but please.. Just go! Anywhere, I’ll find her and Rosabelle and we’ll try and get her to calm down” At that point Miss Lupton exited the stage and from across the hall they could hear her scream “WHERE IS ALISSIA ALEXANDROV?!”. The girls exchanged one more fearful look as Serena ran tottering in her high shoes towards her angered friend as Alissia ran straight towards Henry grabbing his hand running towards the exit as she thought of somewhere, anywhere to hide.

As the couple ran out of the grand hall they only reached the entrance area with the black spiral staircase before Alissia collapsed on the bottom step. She’d taken a nap after today’s audition but the tiredness was just getting worst and worst. It was like no amount of sleep could fix this, it was an indescribable state, the kind of state one gets in after running a long marathon but intensified by a thousand. She couldn’t speak, she couldn’t think, the only thing her brain seemed to be able to tell her was to sit down and rest or sleep, Henry both confused about why they had left and why Alissia was sat down went over to her and said “What’s up with you?” “I don’t… I don’t even know like.. Recently I’ve just felt so tired.. So damn tired and it’s just getting worst y’know” she used her hands to express how bad it felt, to try and get some kind of point across to someone, nobody seemed to believe her with this, that she was just being lazy.. But if it was a proper illness nobody would discriminate right? “Oh…” Henry replied and then turned is head “What the fuck is that?”. A voice could be heard echoing in the entrance hall as only one other person was in there with them, as they turned to look it was Kristoff on the phone to his father’s telling him about the part he had gotten in Swedish “Oooh Kristoff talking to mummy are we!” Henry yelled running up behind him and leaping with his hands on his shoulders “Fuck off” Kristoff muttered to him “I have to go, no I’m going to stay at the school for Christmas like we said, get some extra dance classes in y’know okay bye” he hung the phone up as Henry continued taking the mess out of him “Oh says you none of us are very masculine are we doing ballet everyday” “Yeah well I’ve got a girlfriend actually” “You and Camilla?” Kristoff said sounding unsurprised “No actually me and gorgeous over there” Kristoff’s head turned startled as he looked over to Alissia in the shock of her going out with Henry, he then noticed how unwell she looked and rushed over to her “Oh my God you really don’t look well, should I get someone?” “They won’t believe you” Alissia chocked up “And now I’ve got this fucking part to do” Kristoff put his arm around her to comfort her to Henry’s disgust “Oi hand’s off mama’s boy that’s mine” “Oh you ignorant bastard were just friends, you’ve only been going out a minute” “Yeah well.. I can do this!” he said grabbing her face and kissing her “ALISSIA YOU UTTER UTTER BITCH!” a voice screamed as Camilla Lupton hauled herself into the spacious entrance restrained by her two friends and Arianna who quickly shut the double doors so the Grade Five gang and her could be left to talk in peace.. Kind of.

The screaming and raging blonde girl looked a mess as the girls struggled to keep hold of her, she was like a caged wild animal trying everything and anything to attack the innocent ill girl sat in front of her. “FOR GOD SAKE MISS LUPTON! Control yourself, anyone would think Alissia had murdered your family or something” Arianna boomed. Camilla, remembering she had a reputation to maintain noticed that the two guys were also in the room and managed to contain herself despite the sour, screwed up look on her face which Alissia looked right through, breathing heavily she began to her teacher “I have been a pupil at this school since I was three years old, auditioning because my father always told me I was his balletic angel and now I can’t even go home with second place of the Black Swan but a dopey chorus member when THIS little whore’s been here merely days and yet because of her fabulous connections she gets the top part! How the HELL am I meant to stay calm!!” Arianna looked down her nose as the girl stood in front of her, how dare she insult her daughter, but more importantly how dare she question her power “Miss Lupton as I explained to you when you attacked me on the stage I see great potential in Alissia, her being my daughter has both nothing and everything to do with my decision you see..” she paced the floor thinking of how to word her response “I expected nothing of Alissia today, my thoughts were neutral just like they are for all of you, but watching the way Alissia danced, it was like she was born to do it, her innocence, the fact she is unaware of her talent is exactly what I am looking for, you see.. The swan is an animal, a beautiful graceful being but it lacks the conception to know this as it not human and therefore needs to be presented this way. I see potential, great potential with hard dedication and work, and it is only because of her genes she is such a natural dancer”. She concluded this expecting them all to return back to the party but Camilla was having none of it “What do I have to do?! What must I do to make you see sense!! You are dancer, no teacher! You don’t have the brain to pick people for the right parts!” Arianna smirked “Well you said that very honest Miss Lupton!” “That’s because I meant it Ms Alexandrov.” “Well perhaps it’s time I was honest with you” “Please go ahead!” she yelled putting her hands on the hips not wanting to hear the truth deep down “First of all I have heard about your reputation with the boys of this school and it is reflected on the outside clearly” she said looking at her slutty dress in distaste “So you have no innocence in you what so ever to represent the White Swan” “Then cast me as the Black instead of Serena!” she demanded “I could of” she began “But I’m afraid I you just do not have the right frame for ballet, you’re incredibly tall and flat footed, you stoop naturally” Camilla stepped back in shock speechless, she’d never not gotten her way before and spent the next ten minutes trying to convince Arianna aggressively, even kicking her shoes off in the process to lower her height, finally Alissia spoke “Ms Alexandrov, I know nothing of dance, please just give the part to Camilla” “SEE! She doesn’t even want it! Shows how much she takes after you” Arianna glared at Alissia “Miss Alexandrov I am not giving you a choice in this, I don’t care how much you hate it you will be the next white swan” “You know what!” Camilla laughed with an evil smile on her face “You’re only giving her that part to make up for all the lost years you were without her! I mean we only found out she existed recently and I bet the newspapers would love to hear about this! The White Swan turns Black! Ahahaha!!” she cackled to herself shrieking “You wouldn’t you wouldn’t dare!” Arianna shouted panic filling her thin face “Oh I would! Go on Arianna!” she spat “Why don’t you tell you’re precious daughter why you were never there for her! Why she grew up in poverty whilst you living in this grand place for the last sixteen years! TELL HER!” “NOT HERE!” Arianna cried with a lump in her throat, she fought the tears in her eyes “I will not tell her because of a bimbo’s blackmail! This is absolutely none of your business Camilla!” “And clearly none of Alissia’s either” Rosabelle muttered, Arianna laughed falsely and moved her piercing green eyes to Rosabelle “You really do pick and choose when you speak Miss Benson! Snide that’s what you are” Kristoff who like the others who weren’t arguing were bewildered by what was going on, he turned his attention back to Alissia who had fallen asleep against Henry “Ms Alexandrov I don’t think Alissia is fit for the part, look she just keeps getting more ill” Arianna glanced over at her daughter looking a little concerned “It will pass.. Since you and her are the only ones out of all of you staying over the Christmas break I expect you to train daily for at least three hours” Kristoff daren’t argue any more of her, he was terrified of her “Yes Ms Alexandrov..” he said quietly. Serena looking anxious spoke finally “Guys I don’t want to get into a fight before we all leave, it is Christmas after all” Camilla desperate to restore her reputation said “I agree, perhaps a break will do us good but.. Lets not leave on a bad note” the others agreed reluctantly as they decided to head off to bed before they had to leave tomorrow, Camilla breathed a sigh of relief now as she knew she had a Christmas to look forward to with Henry.. Just her and him.