Burning Desire (Camren) (GxG)

Chapter 16

"Lauren, is there anything you want to tell me?"

Lauren's POV

By the way Cece expressed the question, I sensed that it was more a statement than an actual question. Indeed, there were tons of things I needed to tell her, but for Camila's sake, I wouldn't. Although maybe ... maybe Cece knew already. I had to find out without giving too much away.

"What do you mean, Cece? About the incident before? I really wouldn't know what to tell you about it, just the usual," I said as casual as possible.

"The usual, huh? Didn't know you were into cross dressers lately, after all..." I cut her off as soon as the realization of her knowledge hit me like a ton of bricks. She knew something. At least she knew enough to make implicit jokes about it, making me feel uncomfortable.

"Cece sshhhhh!! Lower your voice. Ok now YOU tell me what you saw and how much you know," I tried to state seriously, my manner a little more aggressive than intended.

"Oh my god, so it's true? You slept with a girl? You randy bitch!" She said in a high-pitched tone. Her eyes widened, but not the way they would have if she were unpleasantly surprised. It was more a look of recognition which, in turn, surprised me.

"What? How? Fuck! Cece," I sighed, "Cece, what did you see?"

"Well, darling, much to my regret I couldn't see shit. Your little girlfriend covered her face before I could recognize it was a she,"she answered apparently amused about my awkwardness.

"So how did you find out?" I asked sincerely curious.

"Lauren, honey, next time you want to keep the sex of your lover a secret, make sure to not undress them in our living room. It's like you were begging for somebody to find out. Anyways, I found her black dress on the floor next to your shirt." As she talked I felt the urge to punch myself in the stomach for my carelessness.

'Damn it, why do I have to be this sex-hungry creature whenever I'm around Camila?'

Mere seconds went by as I lost myself in thoughts about the growing effect that Camila had on me the more time we spent together. Just a simple memory of any of our secret encounters inflamed the longing for more, causing my limbs to heat up and tremble uncontrollably. I wondered why these thoughts made me so nervous at this very moment as I sat next to Cece. Raising the question if this was my physical reaction to the fact that my roommate and best friend had found out about what in Camila's eyes seemed like a forbidden pleasure or probably because my affection toward her was actually stronger -deeper- than expected? Was I falling for the brown eyed girl?

Cece must have noticed my mental absence. Stroking my arm attentively, she brought my mind back to reality.

"Lauren, you ok? I know I might not react as thoughtful as I would have if I weren't this ... tipsy. Apparently, to have fun with another girl is something that bothers you enough to not tell anyone, not even me. And I can't blame you. The only thing I've done so far is to comment this situation with annoying jokes. I'm sorry. But I sincerely didn't expect you to care so much about other people's opinion though, that's not the Lauren I know." As my head processed her little speech, I nodded automatically in agreement. She definitely had a point in one respect: lately, I wasn't myself.

"Cece, if you only knew. I wish I could talk to you, explain to you everything that's been going on lately...but I can't. Not because I don't want to. To be honest right now I'd really need to let my thoughts out to clarify my mind. But Ca- uhm she, well, we said we'd keep it a secret," I said taking notice of how relieved I felt now that Cece knew at least some of the truth.

"So you're a - a thing? Like, are you dating? C'mon Lo, give me at least some minor information," Cece whined, her gaze was expressing pure curiosity.