Burning Desire (Camren) (GxG)

Chapter 20 ;)

Another few seconds went by and the anxiety within me increased, not knowing what to expect next. I felt my hands shake slightly as I waited impatiently for Lauren to ask me whatever crossed her mind. I didn't really understand why I felt so nervous. There was something in her eyes, though. The same expression I'd noticed before when Liam had kissed me goodbye. It looked somewhat sad, but sadness wasn't the feeling they were revealing in the first place. Even though I was still not able to decipher its meaning, I sensed that it was something Lauren was hardly trying to suppress and the fact that she was holding something back from me ... that was the reason for my shaky hands.

Eventually, releasing my hands, she lifted her head to look straight into my eyes.

"Do you love him?"

Camila's POV

I let my mind process Lauren's question, wondering where her sudden curiosity was coming from. I knew she thought I was defending Liam and his bad conduct, but still it was a puzzle to me how she'd come to the conclusion I was in love with him. However, now that she'd asked, I was forced to consider my feelings, which due to their confusing effect on me, I'd desperately tried to suppress.

'What do I feel for Liam? Are there even feelings for him? And if so, what kind? What about Lauren? Does she matter?'

Mere seconds passed - Laurens question still unanswered - as all these thoughts crossed my mind, each one of them eagerly fighting to catch my attention. I watched as Lauren's expectant look slowly but surely turned into an annoyed eye-rolling, her patience apparently wearing thin.

"So you do?" She commented rather than she asked.

"Do what?" I asked innocently and even a little naively, my head still trying to figure out what the fuck just had happened in the last few minutes that had changed our day from being all fun and cute to irritating and upsetting.

"Camila please, don't play dumb! You know exactly what I'm talking about. You love him, don't you?" Lauren questioned almost reproachfully. By now, she'd raised her voice, causing her words to sound somewhat threatening.

"Woah calm down. I never said that," I said gesturing with my hands for her to slow down.

"But you didn't deny it either."

"I might have denied if you had actually given me enough time to think about it," I countered, my voice now matching the heated discussion as I eventually ran out of patience.

"What's there to think about? Either you love him or you don't, it's that simple." Lauren replied as though she was talking to an incomprehensive child.

"No, it's not," I returned, seemingly pissed off by Lauren's stubbornness.

"You kissed him. That must mean something?" She reciprocated lifting her eyebrows suggestively; apparently believing that was the nub of the matter. Me, on the other hand, I felt like I'd been forced into those kisses rather than shared them voluntarily.

"So? I kissed you as well and that didn't mean a thing either, right?" I countered harshly, my words guided by impatience and frustration, my mind too overstrained to even care about checking its meaning before the sentence left my mouth.

"You know what? We better get going before we come across any of your other casual friends and you start your friendly PDA all over again, since that's apparently they way you treat your friends," Lauren said mischievously, waving one hand dismissively as she obviously tried to mock me. With a rough movement, her right hand grabbed my arm, dragging me down the shore and back to where Lauren's car was parked. I followed hesitantly, but only in an attempt to avoid making a scene in public, at least a greater one.