not like the rest.

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i was sittin in my bed stairing at the wall. i couldnt keep on like this.i really couldnt. i cnat be normal if im human or a full shifter.

i cant keep always pretending im happy,when i just want to die. I cant pretend that everything i once wanted i still want now, i dont deserve a mate or a family or a pup.

i sighed and pushed the covers away and stood up i took a deep breath.i walked over to my my closet and searched for a little lock box that i had and always kept locked.

it wasnt in the closet so i searched the entire room and found it hid behind  behind my dresser.

pulling it out i sat down with my back against the wall and set the box in my lap.

My pasat is in this box all the good the bad.and why i had this box still i dont know.but i cant get rid of it.

there was a knock at my door and i opened.i shoved the box back behind the dresser and stood up looking at the door malory stood there looking at me.'

" i put that box there i figured it was important really important."she shrugged and walked slowly over to the bed and sat down.

i crossed my arms over my chest and nodded."it is.important one of the most important things i have."

we sat there for a few minutes and she looked up at me. i could feel her eyes boring into my head,

"i knowyou want to say something.but there are things that happened in my past that i cant well im not really comfortable with telling you all yet." she nodded

" i was just going to say that allen is pretty torn up because you wouldnt let him help you earlier,he dosent understand why everytime he gets near you,you step away from him.hes hurt because he isnt sure that you want him.:

" i want a mate i do.but im not ready for a mate right now.mentally or physically really.the things that have happened in my past that have scarred me.things that im sure Allen wouldnt want me because of."

"elizabeth your not getting it he dosent care about your past.he cares about now and the future.everyone has skeletons in the closet i have them allen has them mark has them,they shape you into the person you are now."

she pushed he red hair from her face and placed her hands on her belly as her green eyes started to water.

"i know this.im scared nothings been the same since." i sat down next to her." i feel close to you because neither one of us can shift i was looked down on by my fathers pack because i couldnt shift and i was the betas daughter.i was a waste of a wolf.no purpose but to watch and observe."

i took a shakey breath.

she grabbed my hand and squeezed it." i dont know how that feels because i have always been a part of this pack and they are more acceepting than the others,"

i want to tell her but i camt the only people that know are gwen and my parents and the old pack its not something that i want to tell everyone. it hurts to know that i have these secrets and i dont want and cant tell anyone.i can but i wont.

"listen i just need time thats all.just need time to get use to it.'

she nodded "the guys left again patrolling i think.but i need help gettin jennie and nichole out of the kitchen." she said.

"what are they doing?"

"there cooking because matt said something about wanting food when he got back so nichole started slaving over the sstvoe burned her hand.jenni is cuttin something and they wont let me in the kitchen and i need food more than the guys."