What did I do to deserve you?//L.R.H.

CHAPTER 13

I want to make a dedication to my best friend/sister Anna-Maria. Anna-Maria, do you want to be my unicorn?

Ps: 5SOSfam power! (rings collide)

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-Lea's POV-

I can't believe I threw my blade away. What was I trying to prove? That I'm better than this? But you know what? This is exactly what I deserve. Hurting myself and then watching the people I care the most in the world getting hurt because me. A tear left my eye to run down to my cheek.

I hate crying so much. It makes me feel weak. But I couldn't help it. Not after what happened.

-Flashback-

"There us someone here to see you." Michael yells from the living room.

"Just a moment." I shout back and run to where Michael and my visitor were.

"Hello, hun." his deep voice greets me.

"What the hell to you want?" I give him a death glare.

"I can't talk to my daughter anymore?"

"You lost that right ten years ago, John." I say harshly.

"But I'm still your father." he says.

"Look, I appreciate the fact that you are trying so hard to bring me back to you but it won't happen. Not even if I had to die." I say.

"Okay. I just want you to have this. To remember me at least." he hands me a wrapped box, dressed in blue.

Blue. My favourite colour.

"You- you remembered." I can't believe he remembers blue.

One day, when I was a little girl, my parents have bought me a present in a blue box. I didn't really cared about what was in the box. I just carried it everywhere, without it having been opened. At that moment, I decided that blue was going to be my favourite colour. I even wrote it down in some paper and signed it.

I hesitantly take the box of his hands and he leaves.

"I have to get to work." he says.

As I was left alone in the living room,  I decide to open my present. I unwrap the box carefully, trying not to tear the blue wrappings and open it. My breath hitched as I saw what was in the box.

A tear slipped from my eyes as all the memories of us being a happy family came back.

-End of Flashback-

I hug the little unicorn I had when I was a child. I always had it with me. I slept with it, I ate with it, I brushed my teeth with it... I did everything with it.

When I was ten, I thought I lost it and I was so sad I was crying for three weeks non-stop, until I forgot about it.

How did he find it? I mean, he was already gone when I lost it.

I really need to talk to him but I don't want to.

"Why don't you forgive him?"

"I can't Ross." I cry.

"Is this Debby the Unicorn?" he asks wide-eyed.

I nod.

"He brought it, didn't he?" he sits next to me to the bathroom.

"I wonder why you always choose the bathroom to cry." he says.

"Well..." I wipe my running tears from my cheeks. "When I cry, I wanna stay alone and the bathroom is the only room where I can do so before Ross comes."

He laughs and runs a hand through his half-red-half-blonde hair.

"Why don't you forgive him?" he asks and looks in my eyes.

All the family has grey eyes, apart from Janet, but in different shades. Mine, for example are a dark grey, but Ross's are a grey blue.

"Because I can't." I look down in my hands. I just can't stand his look.

"But everyone else has." he says.

"Yes, but everyone else hasn't done drugs or tried to kill themselves because of him. And they weren't accused that they destroyed his family, were they?"

"No, but they lost their father too." he says.

"I want to forgive him, okay? I do. But I need more time than they do." I say.

"So, you are going to forgive him?"  he asks again.

"I'm not sure." I sigh.

"Wanna get out of the bathroom now? Everyone is here and we can introduce them to Debby." he says and takes the fluffy unicorn of my arms and shakes it in front of my face. "

"Okay." I laugh. "Let's go."

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-Luke's POV-

"Her dad came?" Calum asks.

"With a box. She opened it but now she's at the bathroom crying."

"I'm gonna go get her." I say and stand from the couch but Michael says Ross is already there.

"Hey, guys." Lea says and we all look at her. "Sorry for the incident."

She sniffs and we all get up and hug her.

"Group hugs are always the best." she says as soon as we pull away.

Then, I noticed a little purple fluffy thing under her arm.

"What's that?" I ask her.

"Don't listen to him Debby." he says and closes Debby's ears.

"You named your unicorn Debby?" Michael asks. "What is wrong with you?"

"Shut up." Ashton exclaims and smacks his arm hard. "Debby is a wonderful name for a wonderful unicorn like her."

"Awww." she replies. "Debby says thanks."

"I know. I speak Unicornish." Ashton says and puts his hand on his waist proudly.

"Really?" she says shocked.

"I also speak Cattish." he says as the same proud tone. "How do you think I saved the cat in the Don't Stop video clip?"

"Oh, but of course." she giggles.

"Come on. I wanna show you something." he says.

Why do I have a feeling that he's gonna show her his pony T-shirt?

I look at the boys, and they seem to be thinking the exact same thing and we burst into unstoppable laughter.