My Brother's Best Friend

Chapter 13

Jackson again went and sat on the couch, I sat on the coffee table in front of him. He was silent for so long "what do you want me to say?"

I looked at him shocked for a moment, everything about him was off. He was talking to me harshly, he still wasn't looking at me and he would never treat me like this. "The truth would be a good start." I said sounding annoyed.

Jackson roughly ran his fingers through his hair "the truth means nothing so why does it matter?"

I scoffed at him "the truth means a lot. I was talking to Danielle today and she has some interesting things to say about you and me. She said you have always liked me, when we were kids and even now. I want you to tell me if that's the truth."

Jackson looked as if he was in deep thought "yeah I liked you when we were younger. Once again does that really matter."

I yelled at him "oh course it fucking matters, you matter."

Under his breath, I heard him say "yeah so does Jamie."

I was taken back for a moment "so that is what it is about then, Jamie has got inside your head again? What did he say to you?"

Jax scratched the back of his neck "the truth."

I slammed my hands harshly against the table "and what is the truth, I honestly do not know what I have done wrong. I slept with you and then you went to ignoring me. Was I bad in the sack or do I repel you?"

His eyes finally glanced up to mind "he told me what you think about us, that night. A huge mistake, you said sleeping with me was a huge mistake and a part of you wished we had never slept together."

I harshly remarked, "so you catch half of a conversation and now you know everything?"

He yelled, "then what do you mean when you said you wish we never slept together because I always thought someone saying that meant you didn't want to sleep with them?"

Tears were slowly coming down my face now "you weren't talking to me, every time I saw you, you would go somewhere else. You were never home and then you started acting weird. Us sleeping with each other changed everything. I didn't want it to change everything. I liked talking to you or spending time with you. I told Danielle if I had known to sleep with you would do this then I wouldn't have. You had become my best friend again and then now you won't even look me in the eyes."

I finally looked up to him, his face mirrored mine. He had tears streaming down his cheeks. He spoke shakily "I'm sorry, I'm such a screwup. Jamie said you preferred him compared to me. That you had gone around and told everyone shit about us and then I saw you all in the science room. I wanted to talk to you but I didn't know what to say."

I sat down on the couch next to him "say hi, ask me to help you move in. You didn't even tell me you were moving out. Bobby told me, then you didn't even come back to the house that night. I thought you were done with that house and with me."

Jackson pulled me into his arms "you thought I was done with you, that I just used you for sex."

I cried into his chest "I seemed that way to me. I didn't know what to think. Jamie wouldn't know shit anyway we never hooked up."

Jackson strokes my hair "I'm sorry for not talking to you and believing him. Can I promise to never let that happen again?"

I cuddled into his chest "please don't make a promise you can't keep."

"Okay, I promise I will talk to you more when I can."

I smiled at him cuddling further into his chest "this is a nice place, Jax."

"Yeah I like it, I'm glad you like it. Now that we are good, on Friday night we are getting together to celebrate my new place are you in?"

I looked at him questioningly "and who are we?"

"Just the usual Bobby, Danielle, a few others from football and Jamie."

I didn't really want to be around Jamie right now after all of the issues he had caused "I guess I can come for you, I don't think I can stay for long though."

Jackson kissed my forehead "you could always hide in my bedroom and watch a movie. It will only be a little get together with a little bit of booze and pizza. No more than ten to fifteen people are invited."

I nodded against his chest laying down in his lap. "Okay, Jax it shouldn't be too bad."

Jax kissed my forehead and then started to play with my hair. I don't remember closing my eyes all I remember was waking up with a kink in my neck and something heavy over my waist. As I opened my eyes I found Jackson's arm around my waist. I had fallen asleep on his lap. His head was laid against the back of the couch in an uncomfortable position. It was 11 o'clock at night, we had been asleep for quite a few hours.

I slowly woke him up "Jax, babe you need to wake up. I don't want you to have a sore neck tomorrow."

Slowly his eyes fluttered open "what's wrong kitten?"

"We fell asleep on the couch, I didn't want you to be sore and achy tomorrow. You should head to bed and I will quickly drive home."

Jackson shook his head grabbing my hand stopping me from walking away from him "no way. You are still tired and there is no point in you driving home when you could cause an accident. Just stay here tonight."

I was too tired to argue my point tonight but I will discuss it with him tomorrow. He leads me to his bedroom. I watched as he pulled back the covers getting into bed closer to the wall. He left the duvet open so I could slide in next to him.

Once I was in he pulled the blanket closed behind me, he brought the blanket up to my chin. Then he wrapped his left arm around my waist pulling me into his chest. He murmured "good night, Matilda." As my eyes closed I could feel as he kissed my hair.