FOREVER NUMB XXXTENTACION

XXI

JUILANNA

"I came to say I'm sorry" Skies said.

"There is no sorry after what you did" I said.

"April was just another groupie I like you and I want to learn more about you" Skies said.

"I guess you won't learn" I said while I shut the door.

I locked my dorm door and got on my phone.

skies dumbass(1)
look I said I'm sorry
🥀lildickgirl666🥀(1)
I'm coming over there now...
🥗ceasersalad🥗(1)
hey just wanted to see if your okay

I heard another knock at my door and It was Jahseh.

"Come in" I said.

Jaheeh and I sat on my bed and I lit a candle.

"I'm so glad your out" I said.

"Juilanna" Jahseh said.

"Yes" I said and turned around.

"Come here" Jahseh said.

I walked over to him and he laid me down on the bed.

"Jahseh stop" I said playfully.

He gave my lips a peck as our tip of our noses connect and we smiled.

Jahseh slowly took off my shirt as he kissed all over my stomach.

"I love you" Jahseh said.

"I love you too" I said.

He took of my pants and panties and begin to stick his memeber in.

I started catching chills and butterflies all at once.

He place my legs on his back and begin to thurst.

It was kind of lazy so I was thinking Jah you can do better than this.

I guess he saw the look on my face and he begin going faster.

Oh my god it felt amazing ...

The warmness began to enter my body and I began to shake until mines came out.

As my body let out I laid back down and he plopped on the bed.

As I let out a sigh knowing I'm laying next to a boy in a relationship but I loved this boy.

I look off in a dazed staring at the wall clock in my room having flashbacks of moments with him.

"Juilanna" Jahseh said.

"Yes" I said.

"I never wanna live a moment without you" Jahseh said.

"Me neither it crazy our relationship is so crazy" I said.

"I like experiencing the craziness with you" Jahseh said.

I smiled and Jahseh kissed me.
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the next day (dej loaf~ changes)

College has put me thourgh so much this past semester.

My friends being by my side throughout it all.

My heart being broken and repaired and fixed.

Abuse, fights, and even being hurt emotionally and physically.

But giving the person I choose the letter will determine my future with them.

My heart was racing leaving the letter on that person's dorm.

I left the letter on the person's dorm at exactly 7:35 pm because that's when the girl's came over.

I walked back to my dorm smiling because I know I made the right choice.

I closed my dorm door and locked it and went thourgh my text with him.

I laughed at the funny messages, cried at the sad ones, and even got sick to the gross ones.

This person loved me and I know he would be happy if I gave him the letter.

1 hour later...

I heard a knock at my door and answered it.

"I'm here"....