THE DARKEST HOPE

Chapter 51 The Hope Reborn

Chapter 51

The Hope Reborn

"No!" Jimin's eyes were filled with confusion and pain. He traced the thin trail of blood seeping out of Jungkook's neck down his torso, soaking his white shirt in bright red. He reached out his trembling hand and touched the warm liquid, it was slippery under his fingers.

"What did I do!"

Jimin was shaking from horror and regret. His nails dug painfully into his skull, his eyes were glassed out, on the edge of madness. A low tortured moan left his lips and he hunched forward as if torn in half.

"Everything you did, I wanted you to do it, Jiminie..." Jungkook was looking at him with calm, anguished eyes. He reached out and his hand caressed gently Jimin's back. "Don't be sad, this had to happen..."

Jimin's whole body trembled uncontrollably as strong, crushing sobs started to break out of his throat.

"Shhh..." Jungkook pulled him up and wrapped his arms around his shoulders. "We are together, that's all that matters..."

"But I killed you..." Jimin shook his head in denial, his eyes were filled with tears, the wild fire of the virus burning deep into their orbs. "You are going to die because of me, don't you understand that?"

"I do..." Jungkook shivered at his own confirmation. It was scary to admit it aloud. But he'd was already decided, he did what he thought was right. There was no turning back. He traced gently Jimin's teary wet cheek. "I couldn't leave you alone in this, Jiminie, I couldn't stay away and wait, pretending that everything will be all right, while every new day meant one more day closer to your death... I just wanted for us to be back together... Even if it is just for a short while..."

"No!" Jimin shouted. "That is wrong... You shouldn't have been here! Yoongi should have killed me weeks ago... What took him so long? Aaaa..." Jimin was lost in a hell of his own. Taking his own life seemed easy and non important at first, at one time he almost convinced himself that the entire enterprise was for the sake of science. Sure the approaching death terrified him and the clear realization that after what he did sealed his doom made him feel occasional attacks of raw and uncontrollable panic. But he kept repeating to himself that those he cared about would eventually be better off without him and he almost got convinced that he was an additional burden for all form the start.

Those thoughts brought some faint amount of peace for his tortured soul and helped him face the incoming demise with the last crumbling pieces of his courage.

Unfortunately to his utmost dread he gradually started to understand that his actions were not that one sided as he thought nor were they that philanthropic and beneficial for his loved ones. Having to witness daily Suga's enormous grief, having to face Jungkook's anger and tears. Their obvious, untamed suffering filled him with guilt and sadness and the unwanted yet piercing thought that maybe his decision was the worst thing he could do chew on his insides daily. There was no going back from where he'd traveled though and what was left for him was to wait death with greedy impatience and the hope that his equally growing greed for blood wouldn't swallow him whole before that.

But now his decision took another toll... One he never intended to pay. A sacrifice too grand even for his own frivolity in which he was ready to throw his life away like a useless rag. For today he personally bit down on the neck of the one he loved the most, his hungry vampire teeth infused his body with the virus and condemned him to the same torturous, short-lived fate he'd decreed himself to. His eyes filled with tears once again and his heart drenched with bitterness at the thought.