All Strings Attached (taglish)

Removable Discontinuity

----------------------

*FREYJA ZELENE’s POV*

Tomorrow never came.

Forward one and a half months later.

 

I was sitting outside sa veranda, waiting for the sun set. My favorite part of the day especially when I’m close to the ocean. I was staring out into the sea when I heard the sliding door open behind me, I didn’t turn around to see who it was.

“So… where’s lover boy?” that voice.

Without looking back at him, “He went with Louie to buy stuff for tonight.”

“Why are you here?”

“I’m just waiting…”

“… for the sunset. Yeah” he cut me off. “favorite mo nga pala ang sunset over the ocean.”

Di ako umimik… nakatingin lang ako sa dagat. Tahimik lang din siya, but I can feel his stare.

A few minutes passed…

“… I missed you…”

Parang tumigil ang paghinga ko. I felt like my heart was about to jump out of my body.  Napapikit ako. Then I turned to him angrily, eyes full of hurt. Ang sakit ng dibdib ko pero I couldn’t stop the words.

“Yan na nga yun sinabi ko before!  What the hell, Zeke!! Sinabi ko na sayo diba. Dyan yan magsisimula. First to be said is ‘I missed you’, then ‘I have to see you’… ‘I have to spend time with you’… ‘I want you’… ‘I need you’… and then…" I paused and looked him in the eye, “… I’ve fallen in love with you.”

I looked back at the setting sun. I felt my eyes burning. I can’t freaking cry. No. I can’t.

He reached out his hand and touched my arm trying to turn me to face him.

“Why are you upset? Wait are you crying? Hey don’t cry.”

I shook his hand off.

“I’m not upset okay!!! Dammit!” I stood up from where I was seated.

He stood up immediately and grabbed my hand, “Freyja...”

“Here’s one sunset you ruined for me!” I removed his hand from mine and started walking towards the door, before I went in I muttered loud enough for him to hear, “and yes… I missed you too...”

I walked into Richie and his wife, Ava, just as I was wiping the tear that finally dropped.

“Hey, we just got here.” Binati ako ni Richie.

“HI… um CR Lang ako” Without looking at them. Dire-diretso ako ng lakad.

“Okay. Oi wait umiiyak ka? Hoy...” habol sa akin ni Richie.

“CR LANG.” tumakbo ako paakyat sa room namin nila Sophie.

Hindi ko na napigilan. I buried my face in the pillows. Napahagulgol na ako ng iyak. Bihira ako umiyak. Kahit noong 8  years namin ni Tyler, mabibilang lang sa isang kamay ang instances ng pag-iyak, lalo pa ang ganitong hagulgol. I hate this feeling!

TAENANG Zeke yan! I told him not to do this!! It was very clear!!! Sinabi ko nang wag na wag nyang i-aarticulate kung sakaling may maramdaman sya! I ended it because I was already feeling something for him. AYOKO. AYOKO.

I heard a soft knock sa pinto. Richie.

“Hey. Don’t say you’re fine because obviously you’re not.” Umupo ito sa kama sa tabi ko.