Anguish

7.

Genesis Bailey |Benji|

"Bailey." My named was called out by a female nurse.

I looked over at Zain who was already staring right back at me, "Do you think I'm making a bad decision?"

"You do what you feel is right. Nobody else's opinion matters."

"But your opinion does."

These past two weeks Zain has been my support system—along with his mother. I just don't want to seem like I'm being selfish.

"Bailey!"

"I won't think any less of you now go." He nudged me to get out of the chair.

I reluctantly got up and followed the nurse to a room. The medical instruments laid out on the table made my heart jump.

"How old are you sweetie?" The nurse asked me.

"Seventeen." I couldn't help but look around. Scared wasn't even the word for how I felt, but I know I can't live with this baby. It wouldn't be fair to it or me.

"Is that your boyfriend out there." She raised an eyebrow and I already knew what she was thinking.

"No, no, no. He's more like a uhh... a brother."

"Okay, well you're going to change into this gown and Doctor Morreno will be in shortly." She rudely tossed the gown into my arms. "Maybe when your finished we can discuss birth control options."

She left out the room and I rolled my eyes. She doesn't know me or my situation and already judging me.

I'm probably another teenage girl that can't keep her legs closed to her. After changing into the gown, I sat down and waited.

"Good morning, Genesis. How are you today?" The doctor walked in.

"Nervous." I said truthfully.

" I can ask any other further questions you may have." She went to the sink to wash his hands.

I shook my head and laid back. I just wanted to get this over with and move forward with getting the life I deserve.

"It's definitely going to be uncomfortable, but I can assure you everything will be fine." She sat in front of me, propping my legs up.

•••••

"Mikayla, I really don't feel like shopping right now." I whined as she pulled me into Forever21. After my abortion yesterday I've been in a sour mood and Mikayla's smart idea was to go out.

I think it's just because she got paid and wanted to go broke the same day.

I'm still not all the way comfortable going out to places like this, but I have to face my fears. How will I overcome anything if I don't just live my life?

"What do you mean? You said you were bored." She held up a bodysuit to my body. "You should get this."

"I mean...it would look cute on me." I said making her smile grow wider.

I took my phone out that Zain helped me get to check what time it was. We had a strict curfew and I didn't want to be late.

"You're so pretty, Gen. You could be a model."

"I want to be, but you're pretty too Kayla." I pinched her cheek only for her to smack it away.

"Nah, I have too many scars. Literally and figuratively." She shrugged it off. "But when you do, I want to be your manager."