Damaged (lams) [DISCONTINUED]

What he wanted

I just stood there...not knowing what to do. His lips connected to mine which only lasted a couple of seconds. It felt awkward. I didn't really expect him to kiss me but he did. I wasn't complaining.

Our lips disconnected and he stared into my eyes.

" John I love you." He says.

I didn't expect that either.

" I-I..U-Ummm"

I was speechless.

Someone love you! This is what you wanted.

But it doesn't feels right?

Well u have no one!

" I-I love you too."

He hugs me and I hug him back. This is love this is what I need.

We walk down the hall hand in hand. So people stared. But I didn't care. Francis didn't either. I wanted this for so long. I will fight for this, but only if he fight for me. ( Heheheheheheh )

Alex POV

I was searching for John in every hall.
I couldn't find him. Was it my fault he left the janitors closet? Maybe? Maybe not. I was worried John might do something stupid because of this. He already looked like he did something when he came in the closet. I looked through every hall in the school until I went to the Senior Hall.

There he was...

Holding another man's hand.

This sight broke my heart. It was a painful sight.

I ran out of the hallway before he was able to turn around.

Why was I getting so mad? I have a girlfriend for God's sake! She loves me and I love her! I don't even like John!

Ugh! Stop lying to yourself.

You're right.

As much as I am mad, I'm a bit happy for him. There is no way he will have the same feelings as me because of what I did to him. I did so many terrible things....I'm a monster. I've dated about half of the girls at school and all I did was break their hearts.

Even if you fall in love, a monster is still a monster.

I'm just happy someone loves John and will treat him with love. Though i don't fully trust that dude. He seems a little....off. But I shouldn't be worrying about that.

As I walk to my locker Eliza walks up to me.

" Hey Honey." She says cheerfully.

Great. Pet names? Another thing I have to deal with.

" Hey Eliza." I give her a kiss on the cheek and continues getting my books.

" Look. Student Council is planning a Winter Ball! Wanna go?"
Eliza hands me a blue paper with the time and date. There is a dress code and how much money you have to pay for tickets.

I would like to take John. But he's a type a person that wouldn't want to come to something like this. Plus, he has a boyfriend. I'm sure he will take him.

I usually don't have a date to these type of dances. I would show up alone and dance with every single girl, kiss them on the cheek, and leave them to eat at the table or hang with the guys.

Since I'm with Eliza, that can't happen.

" Sure babe." I fake smile and walk to my next class.

I FINALLY UPLOADED! Sorry for the lack of updates school can suck a rats ass. I did not forget about u. I did bits of pieces everyday.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!