Damaged (lams) [DISCONTINUED]

5: Cant sleep

John POV

It was around 8pm that we decided to leave, well, he decided to leave. I stayed near the river. We agreed to meet up tomorrow. Which I'm fine with. Since I was finished the poster, I will be able to chill for a few weeks, because the project wasn't due yet. I didn't know what I will be doing tomorrow, but I will figure it out.

By the time I got home, the house was silent.

He must be asleep.

I quietly went upstairs and got ready for bed. But for some reason, I couldn't sleep. That was weird. I'm always tired. But this night was different. Was it the fact that the whole house was silent. Nope.... this usually happens. Well, is it the fact that I'm not wearing my pants? No. The air conditioner started to not work a couple of days ago. Then what is it? I ended getting about 2 or 3 hours of sleep.

Great...

The next day I went to school exhausted. I told Laf about what happened at the park and me not able to sleep.
" Someone was thinking about you.." Laf had this big smirk on his face.
" W-What?" I open my locker and took out my math book. We just came from lunch and I had math while Laf has English.
" You know what they say mon ami! If you can't sleep then someone is thinking about you!"
I started to laugh. Who the hell would be thinking about me? There is nothing from me that they should be thinking about... Also...

Why me?

I bet Laf is making this up.
" Laf I don't think thats possible."

" What? Come on Laurens! You don't believe in true love?"
I gave him a pissed look. He knows that I don't. He know the reason why. This conversation is not making it better.

" Sorry.. but you need to have some hope. Don't you want to live a life with happiness?"

Laf isn't wrong. I need to stop being all sad and depressed. I need to have some happy time. But after what Im going through the last thing on my mind was finding my soulmate. I know for a fact that will never happen. Someone else will think that I'm there soulmate, if they ever open my cold heart.

But I will never find mine...

It's unfair.

But there is nothing I can do about it. Just like I can't fix my height, or get rid of my freckles. I could wear contacts but I'm not putting anything in my eyes.

" Laf...I don't need a soulmate to make me happy. I got you, my best friend. You are all I need."
I close my locker and we walk down the hallway.
" Yeah But....I have a life too mon ami. I have a soulmate that will need me too. I can't always be there when you need me."

Again...he was right.

" Do you have any crush on someone?"

I shook my head..
All these people here are idiots. Besides, even if I did " like" someone, there will be a high chance I that they won't feel the same way. To be honest... a lot of people here in my school are pretty attractive. Like for example Alexander. He's very handsome, but he's a very stubborn dickweed.
Speaking of the devil, as we are still walking in the hallway, I felt a pair of eyes gazing at me. There were a lot of people in the hallway, so it took me a awhile to see who it was. Before I can see who it was. Lafayette starts tapping me on the shoulder.
" Looks like someone is in to you." He points at Alexander who was looking at me. But that stare turned into full of death.
" I can tell he is into you.."

I rolled my eyes and kept on walking. There is no way that Alexander Hamilton, the most popular boy in school, likes me. I'm pretty sure he's not even gay.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TIME SKIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was at the park with nothing but a sketchbook and a few pencils.
I took out a 2B pencils and started sketching lightly on the paper. In a couple of minutes I I drew a realist turtle. Since I sketched so lightly you can't really see it. So I took out a 4H pencil and sketched over the thin line. While I was finishing the little tail, Alex showed up with nothing.... was he finished?
" Hey. Are you finished the essay?" My eyes were still glued to the picture.
He nodded and sat next to me.
Alexander looked at my drawing. He was right over my shoulder. I can feel his hair on my shoulder. I felt a little uncomfortable but didn't move.
" Damn...you're good."
I can feel my cheek heating up. Out of nowhere he takes my book and runs.
That ASSHOLE!!!

No one looks at those drawings!!

Not even Lafayette!!!

" HEY!!" I got up and chased after him. He was pretty fast...but that didn't stop me. I will do almost anything for those drawings. I kept on chasing him. God he's so annoying!!!

While he was running he was looking through my book!
My anger was growing and growing which made me run faster. Which was surprising because my tiny body never did that before. I was about a couple of feet behind him. So I jumped on him, and we both fell on the grass.

Struggling to get my book out of his hands, I realize what position we were in.

Fuck