Undeniable Attraction

Chapter 15

⚠️‼️TRIGGER WARNING‼️⚠️

This chapter contains distressing material that may upset or offend some people, especially those who may have experienced a related trauma. Please proceed with caution or skip altogether.

Mia's P.O.V

I stepped aside for Landon to pass me and open the door. He gripped the door handle as I passed by him, walking into his living room. He softly closed the door.

He refused to meet my eye as he moved towards the kitchen. "You can have a seat, I'll go get you some water."

I crossed my arms, raising my eyebrow at his back. "I didn't say I was thirsty, bring your ass back here and have a seat."

He halted his steps, he stood there for a moment before turning around and walking towards the single sofa. "Mia."

I put my hand up. "Sit down Landon."

He sat down, running his hands on his jeans.

I walked over and sat on the sofa beside his. "I'm sure you already know why I'm here."

He nodded his head, still refusing to look at me as he rubbed his hands. "I-ah... I need you to... forgive me... and ah..."

"Look at me." I growled making him lift his head, but still not looking me in the eyes. "Landon."

His hand clenched in a fist. "I-I can't."

I folded my arms. "Why is that?"

"It- it hurts..." He whispered.

Emotions flooded through me. "It hurts? You can't look at me because it hurts? It hurts you Landon? You?" I scoffed. "Imagine how I feel! You want my forgiveness? Man the fuck up and look me in my fucking eyes when I'm talking to you."

Landon slowly looked up, his red eyes locking with mine. "Mia I'm so..."

I put my hand up. "Shut up, I'm not done."

He bit his lip nodding.

"When you saved me in the alley that night, you took me in and mended my wounds. I kissed you and told myself that it was a harmless me thanking you kiss; but it wasn't something you wanted seeing as you kicked me out right after."

He frowned. "Mia..."

I raised my eyebrow at him, making him shut up. "That was my first time touching you with your consent. Then I found out you were attending the same school and I was through the roof with excitement, I figured that maybe I could repay you for your help. But you showed absolutely no interest in me. Weeks later, I ambush you in your home, getting naked and... taking advantage of you. And that time in the car..."

He shook his head. "That's nothing, you're not the one who owes me an apology, I- I'm the one that..."

"Fuck that double standards bullshit, I do owe you an apology, I assaulted you in more ways than you know. And Landon you..." I didn't even realize I was kneeling in front of him until my hands gripped his shaky hands. "Landon, you... you didn't rape me."

He looked away from me.

I sighed. "I just want to know why you'd do something like that to me. I know what I did was messed up, but you wanted to hurt me, make me feel like some useless whore you could fuck and toss aside." I choked back the sob, refusing to cry in front of him. "Damnit look at me!" I stood up from my position on the floor.

Landon looked back up to me. "I... I didn't know yo- that you were a..." He cleared his throat, rubbing his hands on his pants. "Had I known..."

"You would have angily fucked me more carefully? How about softer? Slower? Or..."