Devil In Me (Jack Kline/Supernatural)

Kline Time-02

~Jack~

Every day without her has been terrible. I don't have my powers, so I can't do a whole lot to help Sam and Castiel find Michael and Hope. I take my frustrations out on Bobby when I train with him, but it's no use. I'm just not good enough.

I miss her so much. I miss the way she would smile at me. How she would look at me like that couple from that zombie show she loved so much. The way it felt to feel her lips on mine. I had no idea what love was, but I knew that when I saw her, when I was with her, nothing else mattered but the two of us. No one had cared for me the way she had.

"Hey bud. Mom, Bobby, and I are going out on a lead." Sam says softly as he peeks through my bedroom door. I just nod, knowing I was absolutely useless when it came to helping out.

I lay back in my bed, drawing the covers as close to my skin as possible. My entire body is freezing without her touch. She let Hope take control and leave with Michael to save me. How she was ever a demon was beyond me. She was so kind and caring.

I hope that she'll come back to me, safe and sound. If Dean had to die to end Michael, so be it. But her... I couldn't let her die. Hope wasn't evil. She was as scared of Michael as anyone else; she hated him as much, too. She was just doing what she needed to to survive, and for Lapis to survive.

I trace a spot of blue on my pillow. She dyed her hair that vivid shade of her namesake before all of this chaos broke out. She said she bleeds blue when she does this. Her hair leaks the color like a gaping wound. Everything that touches her head turns to blue. There's never a patch of any other color left in her wake.

As I closed my eyes to sleep, feeling a coughing fit emerge from my lungs, I pray to my grandfather to bring the girl I love safely back to me. Preferably before whatever sickness is consuming my body kills me.