Day 9 - We talked
We talked like nothing happened. I'm not sure if I should be happy, or upset —I didn't know what to feel. I should be glad that after seven months we got to talk again, but talking with you after a long time felt like I was walking on a minefield. I wanted to keep cautious, I was afraid of every step. I was afraid that if I become careless I might have a sudden outburst. I didn't want you to know how much I've missed you, I didn't want you to find out that I've spent every day checking my phone every once in a while for message. I didn't want you to know that I was waiting for you.
But we talked again. We talked as if I haven't ignored you for the past months. We talked like I've never stepped on your feelings and tried to run away. We talked like you didn't care that I always end up leaving.
You apologized for taking things quickly. You apologized for being annoying. You apologized for so many things that you shouldn't apologize for. All you did was give, and none of it was your fault. I'm just really selfish, and scared. I guess we're both fools.
But atleast we talked. I missed you.
