Finding Myself

feels

So I started to gain feeling for Nicky. At first I really wasn't feeling him like that I wasn't really into Zay.

I was couldn't chose between the two they both had pro's and con's.

Pro's (nicky)
- my age (15 & a sophomore)
- good kisser
- my high but a little bit taller
- funny and fun to be around
- cute
- has a great personality
- sweet
- charming

Con's (Nicky)
- didn't know what he wanted
- childish
- played way too many games

Nicky was really good at one thing. He was a really good listener and when we were alone we had good conversations. Ones filled with nothing but true emotions and how we felt about each other. He was always honest with me. Well most of the time.

I remember when we stayed late after the football game it was just me and him. We were the only ones left waiting on our rides. We talked about Zay. The funny thing was He knew about Zay but Zay didn't know about him.

I told him I wasn't feeling Zay anymore like that and how I lost feelings for him and he told me how he felt about me. I really valued the times when we were together just me and him.

I remember when me and him stayed after school and we walked around the whole school multiple times waiting for our rides to come. We talked about life, relationships and so much more. Honestly he was a really good person and friend. I loved talking to him.

Enough about him now let's talk about Zay.

Pro's (Zay)
- cute
- caring
- private and kept out business between us
- honest
- funny
- good personality
- good kisser
- clingy
- has a huge heart

Con's (Zay)
- senior (18 years old)
- graduating soon
- sensitive

Zay didn't really have that much con's. The only thing was the age difference and that he was graduating soon. I loved how zay had a big heart and didn't just want one thing about from me. Like he actually cared about me he alway checked up on me.

I really appreciated all of them honestly....