Finding Myself

Mixed emotions

ex
1) One of your previous significant others whom you've had a relation-shit, and coincidentally, a break up with. In most cases, not someone you ever want to see again. In very VERY rare cases, someone you might still talk to and consider a friend, because you both have a history and too many experiences to forget about together and are both mature enough to push any emotions you have left (if any), aside.

Well as we all know I'm still stuck on my ex. In the previous chapter I mentioned how she unblocked me on all social media's. Her and I put i differences aside and became cool. I know I know, we go from loving each other to hating each other's guts back to loving each other.

I have a soft spot when it comes to her and she knows it.

December 21st, 2018 we got on the phone and talked about literally everything. I told her about how I had a little of feelings for her still, we talked about how everything went down hill and why. We also talked about getting back together for about a good hour or two.
We've come to a conclusion that we just can't leave each other alone. She's someone I'll always fuck with no matter what.

It's the little things that make me fall in love with her more and more everyday. Like her smile, how goofy she is, the way she looks at me when she sees me in the hallway ; When she sees me in general. The way she makes me feel inside.

I love the little moments we have like when she came in between my legs and laid her head on my chest and sat there for a little while. She told me my heart was beating really fast and she asked me if she made me nervous.

I'm just confused on why I can't get over sis...well I mean I'm over her but I'm not like part of me still cares about her sadly.

I could go on and on all day but I won't...