Permanent Scars

46.

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Ayanna Watson
— Baton Rouge , Louisiana
•••• 10: 27 PM

The plane had literally just landed back in BR , my heart was racing the entire plane ride. I had to get to my mom this shit was so crazy...Something wasn't right , I had just got off the phone with Mar' and then I get the call about Auntie Millie passing ?

Kentrell was with me , we took the private plane back and everyone else stayed back. They were all probably just getting on the plane now and on there way back. He tried to get me to go to sleep but I couldn't , all I kept thinking about was how I was going to tell my cousin.

We were standing outside of the airport waiting on the truck to pull up. I hadn't stopped crying either , I had to stop though I was gonna stress my baby out. She must of knew something was going on she was kicking my stomach the whole entire plane ride.

Just as the truck had pulled I looked beside me seeing Trell' sleep while standing it. He had became a pro at the shit , all the work he been doings I tapped him and he fluttered his eyes open.

" C'mon Poppa." I whispered to him before wiping under my eyes. Walking over to the car , the driver came around and opened the door for us I grabbed my carry on bag I took with me and got in the car. Tee and Khari said they would bring back my things.

Just as we got in the car and the driver shut the door behind him. He looked at me over at me and leaned over grabbing my face and kissed my cheek. I couldn't even get any words out before I started to drown my face up again.

Tears started to roll down my face before I just fell into his chest crying. He didn't do well with the crying shit , but I couldn't help it. I had to let out all these emotions I had been holding inside of me the past almost year in a half.

All these things that had happened weren't nothing but God showing me how the strong survive. I didn't even know how I was going to tell Mar' about this. His heart was going to be broken and that was the last thing I wanted...Especially because he wasn't around.

I had to do what I had to do , made sure he got home to see his mom before we sent her home. That's all he wanted , and that's all he had asked from me...I was going to make it happen.

Kentrell wasn't really showing any emotion right now , I expected that though. Same thing he was doing when Mar' turned himself in , being quiet and distancing his self from everything and the situation.

I knew my Auntie Millie was big part of his life as well. Let her tell it Kentrell was always the person he ran to when he needed something and his mom didn't have it. He'd tell her before he let Mar know anything.

Grabbing ahold of his hand , he just stared  ahead while the driver took us to the hospital. He still had his headphones on which meant , he wasn't in the mood to talk...shit I wasn't either. Everything was all over the place right now

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It took our driver about 45 minutes to arrive at the hospital. He parked in the front of the hospital before coming around and opening the door for us. Kentrell got out and I got out behind him with a little help from him.

" You know where she is ? " He simply asked in the plainest tone as our driver closed the door. I looked down at my phone seeing my mom had texted me a few times.