War of Hormones (RUN) [Min Yoongi AMBW]

Chapter 23: Awake

Jin's POV:

Chaos was ensuing all around us, weighing me down to the ground. I wanted to touch the sky, but thoughts of Chey held me back. I wanted to run free into my future, but Minho's death kept me bound to the past.

Maybe I can never fly...
It's my fate...

Everyone stopped visiting Chey 3 years ago. I couldn't face her without feeling immense guilt.

Wide awake... Don't cry
Wide awake... no lie

I repeat those words in my head daily like a ritual. In order to keep my sanity, I had to transform... I had to forget about Chey and the night we rescued her... or hurt her...

Still, I want to struggle and fight...

Who I forced myself to be, is not me. I'm "Worldwide Handsome" to my fans, but I feel so ugly inside.

Yeah, it's my truth...
I will be covered with wounds all over...

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I was on my way to get Taehyung from the abandoned train station and bring him back home. A girl accidentally dropped her book without noticing. When I went to give it to her, she was nowhere to be found. Against my better judgment, I decided to read it. With each page I read, I fell in love with the girl who poured her heart out in ink. I had to see her again...

She was dealing with the loss of her cousin. He was brutally murdered by the girl he loved. Guilt engulfed her, because she wasn't there to save him.

In a sense, I could feel her pain. We didn't get to Chey in time to save her from the assault. When we did find her, she was in bad shape. I wasn't sure if she would survive the night. And by the looks of her exposed body, I knew... Minho took what wasn't his... That truth alone sent Yoongi into a blind rage.

I couldn't say that it didn't affect me either, because I willingly participated in ending his life. After what he did to Chey, I didn't want her to ever go through that again. And if we let Minho go, he would find some way to get to her again. That was a chance none of us could take a second time.

Last year on this day, the mysterious girl wrote an entry in her diary that had me questioning if we were somehow connected.

"May 3rd: I heard rumors of my cousin's murderer committing suicide in prison. A part of me is happy, but I had to check it out to see if it was true. My family accompanied me to the prison she was being held at. We met with one of the officers. An Officer Park Hanbin confirmed the rumors to being true. My thoughts scare me sometimes, only because I wanted to kill her myself. Does that make me a bad person???"

I closed the book and furrowed my brows. Last year in the month of May, rumors were circulating around the internet that Chey had killed herself. That broke all of our hearts, but our Boss, Chey's Uncle, reassured us that the rumors were false. The rumors were so people would forget about her once she was released from prison.