The boy with the blue eyes

Dear You

Hi,

From the title you can probably guess that this chapter is going to be a bit different. I want to let you know that I would never ever take you for granted. I find myself thinking of you in everything I do. Your my world, my sun, my moon. My everything. Sometimes I feel as though you find me pathetic because of how head over heels in love I am with you. I want to do so many things in the world with you. I want to go on road trips and do the bucket list and just be crazy and party and get high. But, today, the only thing on my mind has been the most awful thing. Suicide.

I'm sorry but I just don't know what to do. I read something today that said "don't date someone you wouldn't own a dog with." I'd love to have a dog with you. On the other hand, you probably won't see this until you get off work or whenever you decide to check Wattpad. I'm sorry I am literally always depressed. I just repeat myself all the time, I say the same things.

I'm also sorry that I've talked with your brother. I haven't even had a conversation with him in well over a year. And from the bottom of my heart and everything in me, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and if I could go back and change anything in my life, I wouldn't. I say that because if I did, I might not be as happy as I am now. It's all because of you.

I know a lot of guys who stay with their girlfriends or vise versa because the other person is suicidal and they don't want them to kill themselves if they break up. I never want you to feel like you have to stay with me for that reason let alone any reason.

I will always love you. I hope you know that.

Love,

The girl who is crazy for you.