The boy with the blue eyes

Dear boy who I love

Dear boy who I love,

I haven't wrote to you in a while because I'm still trying to find the right words to say. I haven't seen you in a while and I miss you a lot. My depression is starting to take over me and it's getting really hard. I've been keeping to myself lately because I'm scared that one day you're going to wake up and realize you don't want me anymore. For that, I am sorry.

I can't stop crying lately and that's unusual for me. I am so thankful that you are in my life. You mean so much to me and I don't want to lose you. Loving someone is so hard on the human. It's like, when you are hurt or sad, you feel it more than the average. When you're happy, it's the best feeling in the world.

I really have never felt this way before. All I seem to do anymore is just cuddle up right next to you in nothing more but a t shirt. You are without a doubt, the best thing that has ever happened to me. I've never said that to anyone before except you because I knew that one day a boy would come along and change everything. Only 6 days and it will be 2 amazing months that we've been together. Every second that I've been with you has been amazing.

I know that sometimes I act weird and distant and I can't explain it but that's who I am. It's absolutely nothing personal. You're everything I need and want. 

Our texts, phone calls, all of that means more to me than you think. I could never ever get bored of you. You light up my day on my worst days. I hope to one day have a wedding and marry you and have crazy children and be great parents.

I'm falling for you so hard. You're so weird and hella lame which makes me weird and hella lame. But, I'd rather be weird and hella lame with you than anyone else.

Love,

The girl who is madly in love with you.

P.S. I'm not going anywhere.