Safer This Way

Chapter 26

You know you're a nerd when google translate's automatic setting on your computer is Greek to English :) If that's not enough of a hint, this chapter is pretty much all North before he came into the hospital room with all the finesse of a battering ram, and it sort of took over the chapter...sorry? Anyways, enjoy and happy reading :)

Also the first chapter of my one-shots book is up, so go check it out if you like :)

That is all.

*North*

I can't fucking believe I ran like a little bitch.

With a growl, I throw the old spark plug across the garage, fed up with my own thoughts but too angry to go see the only person that could make them go away.

"Το να ρίχνεις πράγματα δεν θα καθορίσει την καρδιά σου, αδελφέ (Throwing things will not fix your heart, brother)," Silas's calm voice comes from the other side of the garage, the voice of reason as always.

"Όχι τώρα, Σίλας (Not now, Silas)," I mutter before throwing the wrench I just grabbed with a curse, got the fucking wrong one, moron.

I reach for the right tool, only to have Silas knock my hand away and roll the table out of reach. I turn to glare at him and find his face dead serious and almost angry, an emotion I hardly ever see in his face so I don't snap at him like I'd been about to. Looks like he's as tired of my shit as that stupid voice in my head calling me every name in the book.

"Τότε πότε, βόρεια; Όταν δεν θέλατε να μιλήσετε για τον τραγουδιστή που ακούσατε στο δάσος, το άφησα να πάει. Τότε δεν θέλατε να μιλήσετε για το Shaw όταν αρχίσαμε όλοι να πλησιάσουμε και ακόμα σας άφησα να μαγειρεύετε σιωπηλά σε αυτό το γκαράζ. Τώρα ανακαλύπτουμε ότι είναι το ίδιο πρόσωπο και δεν μπορώ να σε παρακολουθήσω σπιράλ στο κεφάλι σου. Τώρα μιλήστε (Then when, North? When you didn't want to talk about the singer you heard in the forest, I let it go. Then you didn't want to talk about Shaw when we all started getting closer, and still I let you stew in silence in this garage. Now we find out that they are the same person and I can't watch you spiral in your head. Now talk)."

Almost instantaneously, I deflate like a slashed tire and slump down onto the bench to my right, dropping my head into my hands with a sigh.

"Τους απέτυχα (I failed them)," I admit, feeling guilty and angry all over again for not being there when he, she, needed someone.

Silas sits down next to me and knocks me with his shoulder, forcing my hands to fall so I look at him. "Δεν συνειδητοποίησα ότι δοκιμάσατε (I didn't realize you were being tested)."

Unbidden, a smirk crosses my face and I huff a laugh at his dumbass response. "Idiot," I say, switching to English. "But I did fail. I told her–the first fucking thing I ever said to her was that she didn't have to be alone, and this entire time, Shaw has been hiding this huge fucking secret that that monster forced on him god knows how fucking long ago. I promised myself I'd protect him after we figured out someone was hurting him and we've all been so busy falling all over ourselves to impress him that we don't even know where he is!"

At some point in my rant, I'd stood up and started pacing the length of the garage, the restless energy I'd been venting earlier back full throttle.

"And now, instead of looking everywhere for her, him, whatever, I'm here, throwing car parts and wrenches around like a fucking three year old because I'm too fucking scared she won't want me around anymore!"