Inside me. || KIMJIWON

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"Hey u girl!" I heard Bobby's voice, why would he even come here? This is only my imagination.

"Wait plz!" He yelled, I looked back, "I've been waiting for u whole my life! From the comments u made in my insta! U always thought ur sister was lying she wasn't she actually knew what was going on, till the day I met u in our concert, I came close to u cuz my heart went nuts when I saw u, something must be off that I'm going nuts for u I spoke to my self u know I um thought about it many times and um here r the results me falling in depression again, my body is dead...um I just feel like dying these days, u see I don't know what I'm saying or what I'm about to say maybe I'm dumb but I think I just fell in love again... I wanted to forget my past but I couldn't...after u came in my life my heart keeps beating like crazy... I struggled everyday y/n and u left me so easily? Why did u make me struggle this much in my life?" He sighed, "I love u y/n I know u won't believe me do u think it's just ur imagination? U think I'm still joking? Hm? Plz stay with me this is reality! Lsn to me y/n" he came close, "maybe I can't describe how much I love u ok? So um I need u to focus on me...this may be the saddest ending year of my life u don't know how sensitive I became after u left...I just couldn't go on anymore I'm weak now and it's becuz of u? U know I've learned that if I have heart I won't be a garbage anymore and now I learned that love is really painful.  And I don't  care how much I will struggle after this and I don't know if u will love me again just like u did when u were my fan... I love u y/n as my fan...as the fan who u were when u loved me so much cuz u never loved me as an idol u loved me as a lover and I could see it so I just can't help it anymore ok?" He patted my shoulder and left me, he turned around for the last time and smiled like he was ok... "Don't worry I will always love u and I'll be okay after I run some miles and take my anger out" he went away...How could I be so selfish? I sat on my knees, I could see him getting further and smaller, the fireworks of new year began and I couldn't change my selfishness for love, "I'm so stupid I'm sorry Bobby...how could I leave u? When did I even started to lose feelings for u...ur like a disease inside me will I ever be able to leave u?" My heart was weak...

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                                  My love/ aka hanbin's wife🍼

     Y/n is typing...
S/n... I lost Bobby I'm in the middle
Of the road on my knees regretting
Plz Help me s/n...

S/n is typing...
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Y/n is typing...
Wtf! Plz I  lost Bobby...
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