The Assistant // Louis Tomlinson

35 - I Dare You

an extra happy birthday for my sister (Gen) who is 13 today!!!!! LUV U BOO!!!! julia_genevieve

Change My Mind

"I'm bored!" Hailee cries from my bed. I have my own room in the house since Harry and Hailee are sharing. Hey, I'm not complaining. More room for me!

We just got into Havasu, and since it's about seven at night, there's nothing to do.

"Well, I don't know what to tell you. This is the last leg of my break for the majority of the American tour, so I am going to enjoy every minute of it," I grumble as I close my suitcase and shut the closet to join her on the bed.

"Really?" she asks.

"Yeah, I mean, we've already had a long break. Management made it so most of our break time is spent on the west coast because for the next few weeks its basically back-to-back shows and interviews and meet-and-greets and blah blah blah. I think we may have a day or two in New York or something, but that's pretty much it."

"Oh. That kinda sucks," Hailee grumbles.

"Yeah, I guess. But I've enjoyed my vacation. I haven't had a real break in a long time, with school and everything."

"Hmm," she hums in agreement.

After a few seconds of comfortable silence, I ask, "What do you want to do for dinner?"

"We could always go to The Naked Turtle. I haven't been there in ages."

"Yeah, I guess so. A drink sounds good, right about now," I groan in exasperation.

"Yeah, how are you and Louis doing, anyways? It still just seems like a lot of tension."

"I don't know," I answer honestly. "I think we are both just too stubborn to stop being mad at the other."

Hailee turns to prop herself up on her elbow, resting her head in her hand, to look down at me.

"Are you ever going to forgive him?"

I groan and drag my hands down my face in annoyance.

"I don't know! I mean, I know he never meant to hurt me, but I can't help feeling betrayed, ya know? I still love him--I never stopped in the first place. I just, don't know if I can let it go so easily."

"Babe, you aren't letting this go easily," Hailee chuckles. "The guy's miserable. He's putting himself through hell and back he feels so guilty. Now, I think he's just getting frustrated that nothing he does seems to be enough. He's getting tired of fighting for something he is realizing he can't have."

I take a deep breathe, just frustrated with this whole situation.

Yes, I want to forgive him. Yes, I love him. And yes, I feel bad that he is torturing himself on my behalf. But even with all of that--no, I could not move on from what happened. Not just yet, anyway.

"I don't know if I am ready to just, forgive and forget."

"Don't forget," Hails corrects. "Forgetting means acting like it never happened, and you end up making the same mistakes you learned from this. So, don't forget, just forgive. Learn from this and make it better."

I narrow my gaze at her. She seems to notice and looks at me weirdly.

"What?"

"When did you get so wise?"

She just chuckles and shakes her head. "Since... since I fell in love." She looks up at me.

I sit up straight in the bed, looking at her dead in the eyes with a stunned expression.