A walk to remember-G.D.

09

Alia
3 weeks later.
Its been long. Way to long for me, we haven't talked in weeks Ethan doesn't know Grayson doesn't know no one knows but me and him after that happened all we said to each other was a simple sorry what does that change? NOTHING NOTHING AT ALL. Nothing changes the fact that we are friends and had sex after that I went home and balled my eyes out all night long then I got yelled at for staying up late my father beat my ass but I didn't care the only thing I was worried about is my friendship any other girl would have been happy hey I had sex with my hot bestfriend but no not me I'm not attracted to Micah never have been never will be.Something that scares me is losing Micah but also losing Ethan at the same time me and Ethan have gotten really close within the past month or so I really do care for him I like him a lot he likes me too we aren't together but definitely are a thing I believe so I mean kissing, hugging, touching, and flirting is a thing right?

Alia Anderson

11.27.18

I shut my diary putting it away I hear my phone ringing showing Ethan's caller ID

Ethan💙
Hey beautiful.

I feel my stomach get butterflies

Me
Hi

Ethan💙
So me and the boys where gonna go out for a movie do you want to come with us?

I think for a second do I really want to see Micah.

Me
Yeah sure let me get ready I'll text you when I'm done.

Ethan💙
Okay bye babe.

I hang up immediately get ready throwing my hair in a bun pulling jeans up my cut legs then throwing a fuzzy warm coat on adding my boots with it. I text Ethan letting him know I'm done.

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We walk in the movie theater getting hit with the smell of popcorn "What are we watching?" I ask curiously "We are watching the new Halloween" Micah answers it's been a while since I've heard his voice we don't hang out anymore I hang out with gray and e all the time. We walk up to the desk to get our tickets "How many" the tired man asks "Four" Grayson answers "12.00 per ticket" he tells us I go to pull money out but Ethan has already paid for my ticket "Here" he smiles handing me the ticket "Ethan" I groan "I'll be paying for the popcorn too" he grins from ear to ear.

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So far the movie is good. I have just felt kinda uncomfortable because Micah is sitting right next to me I grab Ethan's hand from my left squeezing it trying to get rid of some of this nervousness "Are you okay lia" he asks lowly but softly "I'm fine, just tired" I lie sorta. I get up telling them I'll be right back. I walk out going to the bathroom I look at myself in the mirror this is all to much for me. I walk out the bathroom to be faced with Micah "Micah" I put my hand on my chest "You scared me" I put my hair behind my ear "Why aren't you in there watching the movie?" I ask "I have to talk to you" he speaks.

I nod my head wanting him to go on, I want to hear what he has to say "I care about you so much, I've always had feelings for you but I had to always throw them to the side and when we-" I cut him off not wanting him to go on with his sentence "Micah we cant" I bite my tongue "Can't what?" He asks "We just can't, us we can't your bestfriend that's how I want it to be" I tell him he snickers at me "How do you expect everything to go back to normal Alia?" He raises his voice a notch "By moving past this" he shakes his head "You didn't like it?" He darts his eyes at me "Micah-" he stops me "No your telling me you didn't feel anything that night" I sigh "We aren't meant to be, I have Ethan that was all a mistake it just happened in the moment it got lead on to far we are meant to be friends and only friends" he folds his arms "I don't want you getting caught up with me I hardly want Ethan being caught up with me but my feelings for him are there. No matter what I will always love you I want our friendship to go back to normal so please just put your feelings to the side".

I feel bad but he had to know. I don't want him thinking that I have feelings for him in that way, I walk back into the theater taking a seat. Waiting for all of this nonsense to be over.

•

We walk into Ethan's house going to his room "I have to talk to you" Ethan says making my heart jump "Okay I'm listening" I pull my coat off sitting down "I really do like you Alia I want our friendship to be more than that. I want you to be mine officially" my cheeks hold a rose red but my subconscious is telling me to tell him what happened.

Tell him what's the worst that can happen? Him leaving you, how can he leave something that's was never his.

I put a smile on my face trying to avoid my inner self.

Are you never gonna tell him? Imagine how pissed he would be if his friend told him that he had sex with you.

"Ethan!" I blurt "Yes" he squints his eyes "I have to tell you something" "Okay go on" he nods his head "I had sex with Micah" I shut my eyes scared of his reaction I don't hear anything so I open them. Ethan's jaw is to the floor "I'm confused" he shakes his head "It was a complete mistake" I tell him "Did you like it?" He asks "I mean yeah it felt good but no I didn't enjoy it it's wrong" I smack my thighs "Do I mean anything to you?" Ethan's jaw clenches "Yes you mean a lot to me I care about you" I get up putting my hand on his cheek feeling his jaw tighten every now and again.

I wrap my arms around his body "I hate myself" I talk in his chest "I went home and cried all night, then my dad whooped my ass" Ethan's breathing gets heavier "Alia" I feel his body vibrate as he talks "Mhm" I hum "Will you be my girlfriend?" I feel butterflies erupt in my stomach "I want you to be mine I want to be your getaway, I wanna be the one that makes you smile, and laugh. I want to be the person that makes you happy to be alive I want to be the one that assures you that your more than enough" he places his large hand on my face "You are beautiful I want to be the person that gets to say that you belong to me" my face begins to heat up "I wanna appreciate you" he licks his lips "let me love you Alia" I take a moment before speaking.

Ethan has always made me feel like I mean something to this world "Yes I will be your girlfriend" I smile up at the beautiful boy above me.

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