A walk to remember-G.D.

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Grayson
I pull into rally's asking her what she wants "I just want a large shake with a large fry" I tell them what I would like and they tell me how much it is. I pull up to the small window handing them the money  a/n Grayson and Ethan work with their father that's how they have money, Alia has a credit card that Micah puts money on. She smiles handing me the receipt "I just have to grab the shake" she says handing me the bag I pass it to Alia, she comes back with shake handing it to me then closing the window I pull out of the fast food restaurant going to the beach.

She sips her shake as she stares out the window "You okay?" I ask pulling into the beaches parking area. She furrows her eyebrows "Why are we at the beach?" I unlock the doors hopping out "The beach can be enjoyable in the winter" she bites her lip opening the car door "It's cold Grayson" she mumbles I grab the bag from her hand "Let's talk, take your mind off of it" she puts her hood over her head.

I continue to walk this silence is killing me but I can tell that she is trying to come up with a conversation in her head when she thinks her face becomes focused her eyebrows furrow her forehead scrunches up and she bites her lip "I miss my mom"  the cold air comes from her mouth she brings the straw of her shake between her lips "Do you want to talk about it?" I ask shoving the bag of food in my pocket she shrugs "I just wish I could have a conversation with her" she looks down at the ground "Tell her my feelings I haven't had anyone to talk to in so long that's why I didn't want Alice leaving we were getting so close. Close enough for me to explain my feelings to her" I keep my eyes on her as she speaks.

She closes her eyes for a split second then continues to talk "After my mom died I was forced to move with my dad I honestly didn't know what I was walking in to before I moved in with him I met him once but I was five I didn't really know he was my dad" she shrugs I can see her body begin to shiver I don't know if it's because she is cold or if this topic just scares her "My mom told me he was a bad man I believed her but I didn't really understand what she meant by it" she looks over to the waves that are aggressively hitting the shore.

She kicks the frozen sand as we walk "When I moved in with him he seemed sweet, like any normal father would act. I got settled in I felt kind of comfortable until that one night when he touched me I was nine I didn't know it was wrong" her voice begins to crack "I thought that it was something normal that all dads do to their daughters" I sigh she bites her cheek "I was nine when I got touched by a man, nine only fucking nine. I didn't know nothing about sex or what master bating was I didn't know anything about touching your body making yourself feel good I was nine I wasn't supposed to know I was meant to be innocent but my innocence was taken away from me by the man who made me" I feel my chest heat up.

This all makes me so angry "Obviously I enjoyed it I didn't know that it was wrong, when I was 9 1/2 my dad took my virginity then and there is when realization hit me that night I couldn't sleep I was so sore and I was bleeding like crazy" my jaw clenches out of anger "I was only nine I didn't have a period and my body didn't get a chance to grow really after that happened I started my period so on and so forth the older I got the harder he went down on me" her breathing is uneven and her hands are shaky "When I turned 18 I wound up pregnant I had the baby in my bathroom not to long after that I met you guys" I feel my heart beat quicken.

She looks over to me with a weak smile "Me and Ethan hit it off so quickly that it scared me I'm happy that things weren't taken out of proportion I'm glad we didn't have sex because then I would've gotten attached which I didn't want because I knew deep deep down that I didn't like him as much as my self conscious was telling me I did" she bites at her straw "But I couldn't thank Ethan as much as I want to he helped me get rid of Xavier not that I wanted to but I needed to" she sighs "After being in the hospital for self harming myself I knew that I was done with it and hopefully I stay done with it" I smile at her.

"I want to do so many things starting with my dad" her eyes well up with tears "I'll help you" she looks at me tears fall from her eyes "I just want him to feel the pain he put me through all these years" I grab her body pulling it to mine "I'm gonna make him regret ever being your dad" I whisper she looks up at me with hopeless eyes "I don't want your help Grayson" I shake my head putting my hand on her cold cheek she flinches then adjusts to my skin in contact with hers, she closed her eyes sighing.

I rub her soft skin "Alia I'm gonna get you out of this I'm gonna untrap you I'm gonna make you feel loved" tears slip from her eye lids with every breath she takes. I pull her face closer to mine "Ethan wanted me to promise him something" she opens her eyes I lick my lips "And what's that?" She sighs then begins to speak "To not go to you" my face stiffens "What did you say?" My heart begins to race and my chin starts to shake Ethan told me to go for her where is all of this coming from" I told him that I couldn't promise him that I can't decide who I have feelings for I can't pick and choose who I fall for obviously it wasn't Ethan but that doesn't mean it's not you" her cheeks flush pink I grab her face smashing my lips against hers as of right now I could say that I like Alia but maybe it's more than a crush she attracts me in so many different ways.

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