A walk to remember-G.D.

24

Alia
We get in the car driving to the orphanage office. Grayson clenches his jaw holding it in place I furrow my eyebrows "What's wrong?" I ask cause he doesn't just clench his jaw usually not unless he is mad or focused "I'm just thinking about something" he says ever so lowly I decide not to ask any further questions instead I just pay attention to the snowy roads.

Grayson
I was thinking about Bria but the thought of her made me angry she claims she doesn't love me anymore but she's been texting me all day . I wonder if her and Alia would get along I wonder what would happen if she came back, the impact it would be on all of us. Including Alia.

I look over at her slouched in the passenger seat she looks effortlessly beautiful she has no clue on how quickly she can effect a man just by looking at them. I don't want to say that I have a crush on her but I do for sure like her a lot she makes me very horny that's a sign of liking someone right? Or maybe it's just a sign of lust. I feel bad for Ethan though he's my brother I love him with every bone in my body the fact that he is allowing me to be with Alia is crazy but I know Ethan doesn't have feelings for Alia in that way me and Ethan have always been really careful with things like that we make sure we don't catch feelings to early in a relationship as well as friendship.

But I feel like with Alia it's gonna be different, no I'm not saying that I've already catched feelings hell no who do I look like? I'm just saying that if we get together I think I would catch feelings for her which isn't a bad thing at all, what scares me about that is I know I could leave her without out second guessing I'm a man most men can that doesn't mean that I'm heartless I just watch out for my well being for example I could cheat but she would still be stuck up on me but she could cheat I would be hurt for a week then move on to the next girl.

I think I would be hurt if I really catch hard core feelings but I think I'm okay cause Alia is not that type of girl you can't lure her in with words you can barley lure her in with actions it takes her a while to trust someone especially guys which I completely understand her dad rapes and abuses her that just makes her frightened of all men it makes her not know the difference between sex an love but I'll change that for her I'll help her realize things make her see the good in men not all of them are bad but a lot of them aren't good.

Alia
He pulls into the parking lot putting the car in park which makes me wonder what happened to the jeep him and e were sharing at the starting of the year "What happened to you an Ethan's car?" He unbuckled his seat belt looking up at me "It's in the shop getting fixed up there is something wrong with the engine" he explains opening the car door hitting me with a cold breeze.

We get out the car going in the lady told us to wait so we are just sitting in the quiet lobby having a conversation "When did you start working with your dad?" I ask he looks up trying to think he puts his pointer finger on his chin then hums"When I was 15 1/2 I think" he says I nod "I need a job I can't just expect Micah to keep putting money on my card when he is all the way in Indiana" Grayson chuckles "We could go apply for some today if you want" I smile widely "Yeah we can" I say I look up when I hear a door click "Alia Anderson?" The women puts her lips together.

We get up walking over to her "Hello follow me" she softly says smiling, she leads us through the door going down the hall. She stops at a room then opens the door Mr.Wright welcomes us in with a head nod an a soft smile "It's nice to see you again Anderson" I look over to the family that has Xavier "Hello oh lord hi" I walk over to them hugging them he was taken by a mixed family they are absolutely beautiful "Your son is amazing" the lady speaks they adopted him for the obvious reason they are just a couple no kids well just Xavier.

The bigger set man smiles at me "It's wonderful to meet you" he grabs my hand kissing it I blush due to him being so kind but I hide it with a chuckle "Thank you for taking him, I'm to young to take care of him sadly I couldn't keep him but he is with a great family. That's the only thing that matters" I look back at Grayson he gives me a weak smile "You two made a gorgeous child" the couple looks between us "Ha Uhm we-" Grayson cuts me off "Thank you" he grabs my hand.

I cough a little then look back at them "I can't let you know how much I appreciate you two it means so much to me that you took him in your arms" I fold my hands over my stomach "It's no problem" the man deeply says "Could you do me a favor?" I narrow my eyebrows they look at each other then back at me with a tiny nod "Could you make sure he knows who I am?, I don't care if you tell him when he is fifty I'll probably be dead but please I just want him to know who his mother was I don't want him to think I up an left for no reason" I sigh looking down.

I feel like shit now this makes me sad "I had a reason to give him up but no that still doesn't make me a better parent I'm still a piece of shit I just want him to know that I do love him" I look down at my feet I feel stupid they are looking at me all crazy they're probably thinking why I even had a child "We will tell him it was wonderful to meet you" the lady gets up bringing me into a hug I hug back feeling tears in my eyes I hate this feeling, you know that feeling you get when you think you made the wrong decision? Cause that's the feeling I have right now but anyone would tell me I did the right thing my future depends on my decision I just hope I'm making the right ones.

Hey baby whatcha doin how's yuh day so far where do yuh live what time is it where you are and how do you feel ab this chap?

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