A walk to remember-G.D.

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Alia
I walk into the house running to my room, I lock the door grabbing a notebook with a pen. I begin with Grayson's letter.
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After a few minutes of writing the letter I go to the bathroom. I turn the water on filling the bathtub, I grab a razor putting myself in the tub fully clothed. I lift my sweater sleeves up. I take the razor against my skin, I take it all the way up my arm. I whimper doing the same to my other arm. Tears flow down my cheeks rapidly as I let out whimpers of pain.

My eyes begin to feel heavy as memories of me and Grayson run through my mind so visibly.

Ethan begins yelling at him and Grayson just runs out after me. "Alia wait!" He shouts "Are you okay" he pulls me in his arms "I'm so over life" I mumble shivering "Don't listen to him your love life isn't his business unless you make it his business" I shrug "What me and my dad have is not no love life it's rape" I begin crying in his arms as soon as I said that Grayson's arms tightened around me with all of his strength it's feels like.

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"He hurt me really badly now that you and Ethan know what happens to me at home I don't want that getting out Micah is really lucky that we were the only people in the room, that's my business what my dad does is wrong and yes he should be in jail for it but not everyone needs to know" Grayson agrees "Your secret is safe with me" he grabs my hand from across the table "Don't worry" He murmurs.

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Gray💘.

"Hello" I answer he yawns "Hey sorry I couldn't talk yesterday I was busy" he says tiredly "No it's fine happy belated birthday gray" he chuckles "Thank you beautiful" my cheeks heat up "So did you have fun?" He hums "Mhm I had fun their was a lot of people me and e have to help my mom clean up the house after my dad leaves for work" I giggle "I'd love to help but I'm stuck in this damn hospital" I sigh "I can't wait to get out I just want to move past this" gray scoffs "No we aren't moving past this we are handling it" I bite my lip "Gray I don't want you getting involved" he sighs "I know that A but I want to, I want to help you I care about you" I play with the blanket that is over me "You deserve to be cared for" he says.

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He stands to his feet "I'm not mad at you I'm proud that your getting your shit together but promise me something" he grabs my hand "Promise me that you won't go to Grayson" I feel my heart beat quicken "Ethan I can't promise you anything I can't predict the future thats all unknown to me" he nods letting my hand go "Then just promise that you won't give up on me" I smile "I won't your one of my best friends".

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I hang up looking up at Grayson "He's leaving me" I begin to sob "No no no don't cry" he wraps his arms around me "He will be back" he kisses my forehead "As soon as I feel like things are getting a little bit better something happens" he rubs my arm slowly up and down "Sh it's okay" he kisses my neck a few times "Don't think about it" he wipes away my tears "Just think about the good things, he will come visit you" I feel a small smile form on my lips.

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He rubs my soft skin "Alia I'm gonna get you out of this I'm gonna untrap you I'm gonna make you feel loved" tears slip from my eyes. He pulls my face closer to his "Ethan wanted me to promise him something" I open my eyes licking my lips "And what's that?" I sigh then begin to speak "To not go to you" his face goes blank "What did you say?" My heart begins to race and my hands become clammy "I told him that I couldn't promise him that I can't decide who I have feelings for I can't pick and choose who I fall for obviously it wasn't Ethan but that doesn't mean it's not you" my cheeks flush pink he grabs my face smashing his lips against mine.

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I keep my eyes down not looking up "I don't want to hurt you either, but that feeling is just- fuck it's just stuck with me, if I hurt you I would kill myself" I feel my eyes watering "I just want to love you, okay that all I want to fucking do" I raise my voice a little "I just want to love you Grayson, you are so fucking amazing you would never understand okay! You literally are perfect, I just want to give you love and affection cause that's what you deserve you are amazing" I begin to cry knowing that every word that's flying out my mouth is true; he just doesn't know it. "Just- j-just let me love you please" I sob putting my face in my hands.

He grabs my hands pulling them away from my face "Why did you never say this before?" He asks his face glowing with passion "Because, I've never felt like this before. It scares me, makes me feel like if I don't do what you want that you will up and leave. So I'm willing to do anything for you" he shakes his head "If you want me to suck your dick in front of your friends catch me on my knees real quick" he chuckles rubbing the top of my hand "No, I would not do that to you. Don't feel like that Alia don't feel pressured to do things. Don't think I'll leave you if you don't do what I want" I sigh rubbing my eyes.

"That's how I feel, I can't help it. I hate it for sure I know you, you aren't like that" I put my hand on his face making him look me in the eyes "I know what I want, even though it took me months to realize it. I want you, all of you nothing but you. I want to feel you I want to hold you, rub you, kiss you, hug you, I want to love you Grayson. That's all I want" I end the sentence whispering he pulls my face closer to him connecting our lips.

We kiss slowly not wanting the moment to fade, but sadly it does when our lips disconnect "I'm in love with you" he softly says gazing at all the features my face holds "You are beautiful, everything about you is fucking gorgeous. God really took his time" I giggle at his comment "I'm in love with you too baby" I grab his face pulling him in for another kiss "Would you take the honor to be my girlfriend?" He raises a brow at me I smile stupidly grabbing his body pulling it to mine "Yesss" I squeal kissing him again.

I put my head back shutting my eyes, My whole body goes numb then everything stops including my heart.

Grayson
My phone begins ringing waking me up, I rub my eyes looking at the caller I.D. Wondering why someone is calling me at three in the morning "Hello" I groggily say "Grayson!" Ethan screams in my ear "What" I say hearing him weeping in the phone "Dude it's Alia, she's dead" I feel my head get heavy with confusion "What do you mean?" I say sitting up getting myself dressed "I mean she committed suicide, I called the ambulance when I got home and they took her to the hospital" he says stoping his sentence to breathe.

"They just came out and told me it was too late that she was dead before she was brought here" his voice cracks I feel warm tears stream down my face "This isn't a funny joke Ethan" I spit.

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