***Alex's Pov***
Zack is helping me with music so that's nice. It's been a while since we seen each other face to face. We also like jamming out with each other so it's no issue there.
"Okay so what song do you want to do?"
"Um. Somewhere In Neverland. I'm not sure if I want my NEW school to hear the other ones. Even though there's only two or three. Plus this one is finished."
I only have two finished songs, Lullabies and this one. The other ones are just kind of, there.
"Okay I guess let's start this. It's gonna have to be acoustic. We can still make it work."
We better.
"Okay let's do this."
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Time Skip
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"So I'll get the time and date of when we play so you know ahead of time." I tell Zack as I set everything down.
"Okay cool." He sighs and jumps on my bed, sweaty. Fuck no.
"Hey asswat off the bed and into the shower." I flick his ear.
"But my arms hurt. Not only my arms but my entire living organ!"
"Well You're the one who wants to work out three times a week for 5 hours! Now go take a shower!"
I swear we love each other.
"Fine. I'm gonna go head home though. It was cool rocking with you though." He tries to give me a hug but I block my him with my right foot.
"No sweat sharing fucktard. I have enough of my own." I chuckled.
He smiled at me but waved as he exited my room.
I grab a tank top and some sweat pants along with underwear and hop in the shower.
Once I hop in I take a deel breath and start cleaning myself. I'm not a germophobe or anything I just like to stay neat. Well with some things.
I turn the water off and step out. I went against the shirt since I felt to lazy to put it on and went back to my room.
It's still full with boxes, not only my boxes but Tommy's too. The new house is only a 2 bed room house and mom knew I would want Toms stuff.
I unpacked a lot of my stuff yesterday but I still have to find out where his stuff will go. I don't even know what all he has, mom packed his room. We didn't put his stuff in the attcit or anything, I would made some huge fuse about it.
He was to great of a person and worked to hard for his stuff to be put up somewhere where it'd be forgotten.
God I still fucking miss him. 5 years and I'm still not over what happened. Everyone saids his death was a accident and that he was to reckless and caught up in drugs that he wasn't thinking what could happen to him. But I know he knew what would happen. I don't even know if he was planning to overdose that night, part of me wishes that I didn't know. And that he wasn't suicidal and he wasn't pressured into it. People suck, if his fucking 'friends' would have left him alone he may still be here.
God I just really fucking miss him. I still have nightmares. Well I always had nightmares, but the nightmares are different.
The nightmares are Tom fighting, for me I think. But he loses. And so do I because he isn't here.
My mood shifts into a sad one. I often replay the day in my head but my mind starts thinking about Jack.
Why is he still calling me 'Lex'? He's still nice to me even though I'm clearly a dick to him. A few people try talking to me throughout my other classes today but no one stuck to a conversation. Jack is the only one who trys.
Like when I went to his house a few days ago, he made jokes about bands and movies. Even made horrible history puns when he could just to try to make me laugh.
Why am I even rude to him?
With a sigh I look around my room. My eyes landed on Tom's old acoustic guitar. When I was stressed I would go to his grave and play, maybe I could just walk around a graveyard. Never know what spirit may need it I guess.
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Jack's pov****
I was in the kitchen when I heard the front door open.
"May? Call you order something I'm hungry!" I call out.
"I think I have enough to order pizza." My head quickly turns to see my mom walking in.
"MOM!" I jump from my seat and hug her tightly. "You're home!"
"Yes baby I'm home." He whispers to me.
Wait, it's around 7. Why is she home? She works 8am- 10pm. Not including when she works extra hours for more cash.
"Momma why are you here?" I pull away from her with curious eyes fearing the worst.
"Well. I, I told... Um. I Got fired." She saids shamefully avoiding my glaze.
"Wait what? Why?"
"Jack, I don't want to talk about it." She gave me a sad smile.
"Um okay. But what about money? May is gonna have to start working more," my eyes went wide from my next thought. "I'm gonna need a job won't I?"
"Only for a little while." She shrugged. "Besides I'm sure you don't do anything anyway. This could be a way for you to mature."
Could have said it a bit nicer. Why is everyone set on me maturing? And I really that bad? My own mom who isn't even here half of the time doesn't even think much of me.
I just nod and walk to May's room. I knock a few times before she opens the door and let's me in.
"What's up brother mother." She laughs to herself.
"Didn't know I had kids. Oh I hope Alex is my baby daddy." I joke at her.
"Woah woah woah, that guy that came over a while back? You two would make cute kids. To bad boys can't get pregnant."
"Yeah I guess... But on a serious note-" May cut me off.
"You serious? When are you ever 'serious' Jack?" She laughed and rolled her eyes.
I don't know why, but for some reason I felt like crying.
"Mom's home." With that I walked out.
That's when I started to piece the pieces together. I'm just a idoitic person who can't be taken seriously.
I needed to run or do something. Anything to get my emotions out, so I did something I hadn't done in a while. Ran to see my dad.
A/n, I'm going through some stuff atm and I can't get on until my dad gets a phone for me... there is a lot going on, so so sorry....
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Lullabies (Jalex)
FanfictionAlex is a mystery. He is quite at school, but if he is around family or his bestfriend Zack he is happy as can be. But that is because after his brothers death he pretends too be happy just to show his family he is okay. Zack is his bestfriend si...
