Here We Go Again.

Pre-Party

  "Jo, what are you wearing tonight. You are the star of the show" Austin tells me.
  "I don't know, please don't let everyone know it's my birthday party. I don't want the attention" I tell him as we all sat in the hall last block, we had a study block. Like most of our blocks lately.
  "Yeah, whatever" he waves me off.
  "Is Dani coming?" I asked Sam.
  "Yeah, she said she would" He nods. "Although she is 21 it'll be all teenagers" he sing songs to me.
  "I don't care" I mutter.

Last night was great. And when Sam left I was thinking about life and all. Never really a good thing. But I realized since I've met Sam and up until today, my anxiety, my nightmares and shit about my mom have lowered. I've almost been happier. And thinking of that made me realize how great Sam was. I didn't want this to be cheesy or anything but I'm getting really deep with Sam and he was always so easy and comfortable to talk to that it's all crazy. I'm happy that I have him, and I'm usually so weird and awkward and distant about these things but I realized I shouldn't be and he's great. All of my friends are, and obviously he's not just a friend. But it got me thinking that my life has been pretty good that past couple of months or however long.

  "Hey, what are you thinking of" Sam nudges me as I was obviously in my own state.
  "I hate that question" I state he grins.
  "I know" he nods. "But there's obviously something going on up there if you aren't here mentally" he says.
  "Life" I mutter.
  "Life's weird" He says and I laugh.
  "Ya, it's very weird" I nod.
  "You two are weird, no one cares about what she's thinking her minds weird. Someone's gotta buy the booze" Austin says to us I laugh rolling my eyes.
  "Can Dani, if we give her the money?" I asked Sam.
  "Yeah" he nods.
  "There you go Austin" I say he nods.
  "Cool, then she's gotta be at my place early" Austin tells Sam he nods.
  "Alright" Sam nods. I grab my book that I was reading and continue reading.
  "Bitch, who reads during a school study block?" Austin asked me.
  "Actually though" Mandy agree's Caleb nodding.
  "A person who likes to read. Leave me alone" I muttered looking back at my book Austin sighs really loud obviously so I could hear.  I roll my eye's.

  The bell rang only 5 minutes after that and we all left, Austin in a hurry to set up at home.

  "Pick you up at 7:30, to be there early?" Sam asked me when he stopped at my house.
  "Yeah" I nod. "Bye, see you then" I said he nods and I get out and into my house. All I know is that if I don't do at least some makeup, Austin will rip my non-existent balls off.

I go up to my room and go to the washroom to take a shower before I actually do anything.

After I do that I put on some shorts and a sports bra and sit at my desk to do some makeup. I did some simple pinkish eye look because, I'm not outrageous with my makeup. I had a lot of time to spare. Just thought it'd be easier to do this now. I dry my hair keeping it short and wavy. I sit on bed with a sigh pulling out my phone. I write to Sam

ME: Hi

SAM😈😍: Hi..

ME: Kinda bored....
ME: So I'm texting you

SAM😈😍: I can see that
SAM😈😍: Whatcha up to?

ME: texting you... duh
ME: Other than that, laying in bed not knowing what to do for the next was 2-3 hours

SAM😈😍: Want me to join? Cuz I'm bored. We can be bored together. Then maybe it won't be boring...?

ME: Yes, please do come
ME: and... bring coffee on your way here too?

SAM😈😍: Of course see you in 5 babe

I smile and put my phone down. My bed sheets were cold on my back but I liked it because I was hot. I stare at the ceiling, the ceiling I'm always staring at. Tonight, I'm not gonna be anxious, I'm gonna have fun.
What felt like only 5 minutes, Sam walked in.
  "Hey, here you go" He hands me a coffee.
  "That was quick" I sit up grabbing the coffee. "Thanks" I grin he nods and I see his eye's rake my body. When I realized I was only in a sports bra and some shorts. Whatever, we're dating. He takes a seat next to me. I sip my coffee.