Nasanay akong nakukuha lahat ng gusto ko.
Gusto kong segundo palang nakuha ko na ang mga ito.
Minsan pag-bored ako, pag may ngumiti at pumuri lang saken, binibigyan ko na ng isang milyon.
I've traveled too many countries. Naalala ko, I asked my mom para pumunta ng Sweden dahil naiinitan ako masyado dito sa Pinas.
We have hundreds of properties. Everything you could imagine, we have it.
People used to call me 'Senyorita'. As long as I can remember, every time I want to shop some clothes, napapalibutan ako ng di bababa sa 50'ng body guards.
I'm too hardheaded to handle.
I used money as a weapon.
I could manipulate people through it. I could make everything go round. I believed na never kaming mauubusan ng pera.
I'm spoiled, so much. My mom gave me everything I want. She can afford everything for me.
Dati naiisip ko pang ipabili kay mommy ang Facebook pero naisip ko baka maghirap si Mark Zuckerberg kaya sinarili ko nalang.
I could still remember, it was my 10th birthday when I asked my mom to have a private party with Oprah Winfrey and Barack Obama and give it as a gift for me. The next day was my birthday and what I asked, happened for real.
Nag-aaral ako sa ibang bansa and palipat-lipat ako. Pag nainip ako magpapalipat ako kaagad.
I think I got the most expensive bedroom in the solar system. Paano ko nasabi? I got a really huge chandelier made out of 24K gold on my bedroom. The windows are bullet proof. My bed is made of glass at hangga't walang finger print ko, matigas iyon. It gets softer kasi. Technological advancement be like. My ceiling is really glamorous because it's filled of so much diamonds.
And everything that's located in my bedroom are also filled with real expensive pearls.
When I once study here sa Pilipinas, hindi ko mahabaan ang aking pasensya sa heavy traffic kaya nagpabili ako ng chopper para yun nalang ang sasakyan ko tuwing papasok.
Sa tuwing kakain ako ay may tumitikim muna bago ako, dahil nga mayaman kami, madami-dami rin ang maiinit ang mga mata sa amin. Buong bahay namin bullet proof. Including our cars and more. Kulang nalang pati damit namin bullet proof na din.
We also have so much nannies yet no one couldn't handle me. Lol.
But wait, my shoes are BULLET PROOF. Yes, you read it right! And it's not that expensive naman. It's just actually affordable, it costs 1.5 billion pesos and it's limited edition.
We are so much respected and praised when we still got the money, wealth, fame and power.
Pero lahat ng yan ay nawala sa amin, sa akin. Ng mamatay si mom due to heart attack while dad died because of a car accident.
I don't know how to handle everything they left me. All I know is to spend all the money and everything.
I'm the only child and that's really a big problem. My granny and grandfather died alread. I can't trust my relatives when it comes to our company.
Everything fell apart.
In just a year, all our properties are sold. I prefer to sell those to buy new ones---or my wants to be exact.
I used my money for partying, treating my friends, traveling by myself and of course treating myself some jewelries, which I love the most.
Our companies got bankrupted.
Our beaches and even the chopper I used to ride with isn't mine anymore. Pati 'yon pinagbili ko.
I almost lose my mind dahil yung mga gusto ko, di ko na magawang mabili. Yung mga lugar na gusto kong puntahan, hindi ko na magawang puntahan.
I even sell my private plane and our airline. This is really bad.
Everytime na titingin ako sa salamin, I couldn't identify myself anymore. This isn't me.
Mabait naman ako, I love giving and helping other people but sometimes meron talaga akong sungay lalo na pag-wala ako sa mood at hindi ko nakukuha ang mga gusto kong makuha.
Gusto ko lahat real quick.
Then one day, I give my bodyguards and nannies their whole salary and though they want to stay with me because they are too loyal to my family, I still asked them to leave me alone.
I almost lose all.
But the one thing I can't manage to sell, is our house. Our home. I could sell the cars and everything. Just not our home.
My tears won't stop flowing wayback when I was so stressed about my losts.
I fell from grace those days. I fell behind.
My friends before never helped me and now throwing me their hurtful words because I'm in a lower class na, unlike them.
I still have some money in my bank accounts, which is supposed to be my life time and after life savings but it isn't anymore.
I never had a sibling.
I want my past lifestyle back. Pero mangangarap nalang ba ako?
My life is like fairytale. It's like the every little girl's dream. Until I faced the reality of life and my shiny life slowly got rusted.
Marami ng nagbago sa akin. My looks and whatsoever.
But beyond everything,
I'm still Crossini, who wants to get everything sa ilang segundo lang.
Until now, I'm still thinking and hurting about what happened to my parents and to everything.
How could I turn those back?
Paano pang naging Rio ako kung hindi ako magaling gumawa ng paraan.
Alam kong dadating ang araw,
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I'll be called Senyorita Crossini Rio, again.
