I should do something, mayroong dumadaan sa isip ko pero hindi ko masabi dahil I think it's evil. At parang ayaw ko naman ng ganun.
Kung magta-trabaho naman ako para maging multi-billionaire ulit, baka patay na ako wala parin.
Ngayon ko lang ulit naisip ang mga pina-plano ko.
Hindi ko na kaya ang mga panliliit sa akin ng iba. I want myself back like a bullet. I want myself being praised again.
Maybe if I subsided the word mercy, I could finally make it possible.
But how could I?
My mind is really showing me a one ace for it to all happen.
A person.
I should be contented. But I'm a Rio, and I'll never be contented. I born with everything. Masyado ko ng nakalimutan ang main plan ko dahil sa mga nangyayari araw-araw. I must never forget about it.
I am thinking of using him.
Napa-titig ako sa chandelier ng aking kwarto. Gagawin ko ba? But my eager to become rich again is really driving me insane!
I should think about this clearly and reasonably. Is this reasonable tho?
What the hell!
Bakit nagcome up ako sa ganitong pag-iisip? This is going to be unfair with him!
After hours of debating between my conviction and my conscience, conviction won over it.
Okay, I should do something. He's inlove with me. Crazy inlove with me. And told me he's treating me as his queen because he loves me. And why not ituloy-tuloy ko na?
Why not?
Ohmygod Crossini, this is really a bad idea! But when I feel the urge about getting back to being rich, I can't deny how I wanted to be like it again.
***
"I said over head!" umupo muna ako dahil katatapos ko lang. Si Lala and Darwin ang nasa court ngayon.
Nikolai is here with me. I'm trying to be nice. Magsisimula na ako ngayon. He's my ace. I don't wanna use Derris even though alam kong kahit Mars o Jupiter ay kaya niyang ibigay sa akin. He's been a good friend of mine. I can't even manage hurt him.
"Have you tried the Piaya I bought you?" he asked.
"Yes,"
"Is it tasty?"
"Of course."
"You okay?"
"Yep,"
"I don't believe you, Crossini." tinignan ko naman ito.
"I'm just tired, okay?" inilagay nito sa likod ng aking tenga ang takas kong buhok.
It's my time to try his capabilities for me.
"Nikolai," I called.
"Yes, baby?" habang nanonood ito sa harap.
"Do you really love me?" kahit ako ay kinabahan sa tanong ko.
"Yes, and I can sacrifice everything for you." sincere na sabi nito. Napatigil naman ako. Dapat hindi ako naa-apektuhan sa mga sinasabi niya. But I can't seem to understand why I am feeling this kind of thing! I mean---this fast heartbeat and butterflies in my stomach and nervousness and a lot!
"I want new pairs of shoes." medyo nag-dalawang isip pa ako riyan.
"You want one? What brand do you want then?"
"I'm not asking you to buy one---"
"I've seen the new release shoes from a expensive prominent brand. Alam ko namang you're a daughter of a multi-billionaire kaya I'm sure sana'y ka sa mga mamahalin." napangiwi ako.
"Seriously?" sinamaan ko ito ng tingin.
Bigla itong nag-dial ng digits at may kinausap. I can't seem to understand what he's talking about dahil occupied ako sa iniisip ko kagabi.
I'm really frustrated right now! Hindi ko namalayan na nakababa na pala ang phone nito at nakatingin na sa akin.
"Mamaya nandito na yung sapatos, I want you to use it on your game sa Nov 10. Okay?" I nod.
"How much is it?"
He smiled.
"7.2 million pesos." maligaya niyang sinabi sa akin.
"You really bought it for me?" hindi parin ako makapaniwala.
"I just did, I can buy anything for you."
My parents used to say that to me before. That they will buy everything for me because they can. And it symbolizes their love for me.
Nagpatuloy na ako sa pagpa-practice hanggang sa hapon na kami naka-uwi. Sumabay na ako kay Nikolai at nag-stay rin naman siya sa mansion.
"I find you weird today," puna niya. Tinaasan ko naman ito ng kilay.
"What do you mean?"
"Hindi ka na nagta-taray sa akin---"
"You want me to?"
"Of course not! I'm just, you know, not used to it."
"I just realized that---you've waited me for years. And it's too mean if will show you my bad attitude, even if I'm not really kind." I hate lying but I need it. Starting now.
He chuckled. Hinawakan ako nito sa chin para magtagpo ang paningin naming dalawa.
"Kahit ano ka pa, I still love you. And I'm willing to wait you." nagbara ang lalamunan ko sa narinig. "Mag-shower ka na. Hihintayin kita dito sa living room."
Pagkababa ko sa grand staircase, dumiretso na ako sa living room. We ate Piaya and I enjoyed it.
"Masarap pala 'to?" he exclaimed.
"Of course, hindi ako kumakain ng hindi masarap. Duh?" he just pinch my cheek.
"Ouch! It hurts!" reklamo ko. Ang sakit kasi.
He kissed the cheek and laughed. "Ayos na? You're blushing," puna nito.
I rolled my eyes at binaling sa iba ang paningin.
Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako roon. Nagising nalang ako ng may maramdaman akong paulit-ulit na nag-i-smack sa labi ko.
"What the----what are you doing?!" at pinaghahamaps ko siya ng unan. Nasa kwarto kami? Did we teleport?
"Finally, you wake up---aww! Stop! Oh come on---that hurts!"
"You're rude! Get out of my bedroom!"
"Our bedroom," pagko-correct nito.
"SHUT UP!"
***
Naligo na ako para maghanda sa school. Umuwi na siya dahil wala siyang dalang gamit. Nagtabi nanaman kami sa kama matulog. Nakaka-dalawa na yun ah?
"Sinong nagdala sa akin sa kwarto?" tanong ko sa isang kasambahay.
"Si Sir Nikolai po, bakit po?"
"Nothing" at tinalikuran ko na ito.
Habang nagba-bike, binabagabag ako ng isip ko. It will not hurt me in the end kung ipagpapatuloy ko 'tong ganito. 'Tong mga plano ko. Well, I have no romantic feelings towards him naman.
So ano pang dahilan para umatras ako? But para ko na ring pinapatunayan na isa akong gold-digger.
It's not my fault kung ganun niya ako ka-gusto na kahit ano ay kaya niyang ibigay sa akin. So he's really my ace, and no one else.
