kleptomania [a kaihun fanfic]

our fight

Sehun pov
"Nini~"
"Yes Hunnie?"
"I'm tired..."
"Then we go up." (a/n: i made the many errors in language there for a purpose. WE GO UP, WE GO U-UP UP WE GO UP. WE GO U-UP UP WE GO UP! WE GO UP! UP WE GO UP, WE GO UP, WE GO UP. okay sorry 😂)
"Carry me?"
"Of course baby, that's not a question needed to be asked."

We went upstairs to our room and he gingerly placed me on the bed before taking off his shirt and crawling into bed.
"Sehun."
"Yeah?"
"Face me~" I turned around and faced him, only to be pulled into a sweet kiss.
"I love you~"
"I love you to Nini~"
And with that, we both fell into a deep slumber, secured in each other's arms.

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I woke up to the lingering feeling of a kiss on my forehead. Opening my eyes, the first thing I saw was the black ceiling. I looked to my side and realise that I was alone.
"Jongin?" No answer.
"Nini?" Silence.
"Kai?" No response.
He must be out... fuck I can't walk...

I laid there playing with my phone until Jongin came back. Five hours later.
"Nini!"
"Sehun-ah, why are you still in bed?"
"I can't walk..."
"Stop being so dependent on me for fuck's sake!"
"I-I..." I bit my lip to prevent tears from falling but to no avail. I brought my knees to my chest and cried.

"Fucking cry baby." Why was he doing this? What did I do? He just left the room, slamming the door. Baekhyun and Chanyeol opened the door after hearing the bang and rushed towards me.
"Sehun?"
"W-wh-what d-did I-I-I d-do?"
"What happened?"
"H-he s-sh-sh-shou-shouted at m-me... a-am I r-r-reall-y t-that d-depe-endent?"
"Sehun..." Baekhyun rubbed my upper back, trying to calm me down.

After awhile I did calm down a little and stopped crying as well.
"What happened?" I took a deep breath in and let it out.
"I don't know... but I just know that he wasn't here when I woke up, and he only came back five hours after I had awoken. My back is bruised badly so it hurts a lot when I walk and he knows that. He shouted at me, telling me to not be so dependent on him. It being the first time he shouted at me, I got a little emotional and cried, he just said 'fucking cry baby' and walked away yet again..."

"Sehun..."
"What did I do? Why is he acting like this?"
"I don't know... Mingsoo may know, I'll call him in."
"Okay... thank you..."
"Anytime, you're our friend, after all." I faintly smiled at them and they left to find Mingsoo, who soon came in a few minutes later.

"Sehun you called?"
"I- do you know why Kai is acting like this today?"
"Like what? He's been exceptionally kind to everyone, making breakfast for them and all." I felt tears well up in my eyes again.
"D-do you m-mind b-bringing m-me to t-the t-toilet?"
"I don't mind. Get on my back." I did so and he carried me to the toilet.
"Th-thank y-you Mingsoo."
"Most welcome, Sehun. I'll ice your bruise when you are done showering, okay?" I nodded my head and went into the toilet.

I stripped myself and prepared a bath. I was searching for the soap when I saw a sharp blade.

triggering.
-> self harming

I took it and got in the bath tub. Hovering the blade over my arm, I was hesitant, but what's there to lose? I'm just a worthless and useless person who is way to dependent and a fucking cry baby. I slashed my skin and blood started oozing out slowly. The stinging pain in my arm was there, but the more I cut, the more I enjoyed it.

I enjoyed seeing blood ooze out slowly from my cuts. I enjoyed hurting myself. No one cares anyway. Even Kai has had enough of me. I'm just a fucking worthless bastard and I am useless. I'm too dependent and I am a cry baby. And I am anything but liked. Everyone hates me. My father hates me, Luhan hates me, and even Kai hates me. I'm just a fucking bitch and I don't deserve to live.

*knock knock*
"Sehun!" I was partially hoping it was Kai but I recognised the voice to be Mingsoo. I threw the blade in the bin and dipped my hand in the water, watching the water turn a red-pink shade. I internally scoffed at myself for being so pathetic. I got out the shower and dried myself, but I noticed that blood was still dripping from my hand. Shit...

Did I burst a vein or something?
"SEHUN!" More banging on the door. I couldn't care about that at the moment. I felt my head spinning as I crashed to the floor and everything was black.
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holy shit what is this

is this some sorcery?

WHY DID THEY EVEN FIGHT?!

fight->self harm->?

-C