Our Daughter. (Ashton Irwin)

Chapter 9.

Weeks passed and Ashton luckily had made a full recovery. He had to leave the UK next week and I had so much anxiety over what would happen to us.

We were all having a lazy day, just relaxing around the house when Ashton obviously noticed something was wrong, he gave me a questioning look.

"What's up baby?" my heart still fluttered at the use of that god damn word.

"Oh, nothing. Just thinking..." I trailed off.

"Whatcha thinking about?" He tucked a stray strand of hair behind my ear and poked my cheek.

"Ash, I'm scared." I finally blurted out.

"What of beautiful? What's to be scared of?"

"You're leaving us next week, it's scary." We'd kind of avoided the whole subject of Ashton leaving which wasn't good for any of us but there was no other way to deal with the fact.

"I'm not leaving you Sam, I'm going to be here forever. I promise."

"But Ash what if you find someone better than me? Someone in America or back at home?"

"How could you even think that? I would never leave you two. I love you both so much it hurts Sam. It hurts me knowing that you think I could hurt you again. I love you Sam."

"I love you too, I just don't want to mess with Darcey's head anymore. It's cool that she has a rockstar dad that followed his dreams but I just need her to know that you'll always come back. I mean I'll miss you a bit too."

"Only a bit?" he giggled grabbing my cheeks.

"Well maybe a bit more," I laughed as he pulled me in for a kiss, I didn't want to let go, I knew this couldn't last forever but I needed enough of him to last until he got back.

"I will always come back princess, I promise you both. In fact-" he ran upstairs. I had no idea where he was going.

Darcey waddled over to me, I pulled her into my lap as she wiped her eyes. Her dark blonde curls bouncing with every slight movement she made, her cheeks were warm from sleeping. She was wrapped in a purple dressing gown and a pink onesie with rabbit ears. She looked so cute, I just wanted to keep her in my arms forever, protect her from anyone who could possibly hurt her.

Ashton jogged back down the stairs holding two small boxes, he walked over and sat beside me. He pulled me onto his lap, Darcey being an extra weight on top of mine.

"Darcey?" Ashton pulled her off of me to sit infront of us so we could both see her.

"Mhm?" She sleepily nodded.

"I want you to remember, however far away daddy is, it could be weeks before daddy sees you, but I'll always be here. Always. I want you to remember that I'm only ever a phone call away and I'm never leaving you, okay?" he asked. You could tell he was holding back the tears.

Darcey teared up, "daddy are you leaving again?" Ashton pulled her into his arms and began to rock her back and forth to calm her down.

"Yes sweetie, but I'm coming back soon."

"Okay," she sniffled.

"I'm not going for another week yet, but I still want you to have this because then you'll always remember that I'm coming home." Ashton pulled out a tiny silver chain with a heart on the end.

"Wow..." Darcey trailed off which caused us to both laugh.

"Do you like it?" He asked.

"Yes! Thank you daddy!" She stood on his lap and wrapped her tiny arms around his broad frame which dwarfed her.

"Oh, and if you open this up-" he opened the tiny heart locket on the front to reveal a picture Luke took of the three of us at the park before. It was so thoughtful of him.

"I love you daddy."

"I love you too baby girl." He lightly kissed her cheek then rubbed her back as she hugged him tight.

"Oh yeah, I almost forgot Sam... I got you-" he pulled open the tiny ring box to reveal a beautiful silver ring with a tiny diamond on it.

"It's a promise ring, I promise that I'll keep all the promises I make and always be good to you two, I promise to marry you one day Sam, I know I said this last time but this time, I mean it. I mean it so hard and yeah.." he stuttered.

"I'm sorry- I just... I love you so much," he went bright red and started to giggle. It was insanely cute, I tried to regain control in myself which was very hard.

He placed the ring on my finger and kissed me gently on the lips, I couldn't get enough of this boy. He was like a drug and I was addicted to him. He was all I need, all i'll ever need. He keeps me going and I just love him. He makes me feel so many things I've never felt before, he flows through my veins.

I pulled back an stared into his hazel eyes, they say that eyes are a window to the soul. Ashton looked so happy right now, if this theory was true Ashton looked to be the happiest man alive.

"Right, who wants some dinner?!" I shouted as I pushed myself up from the sofa.

"Me!" they both shouted in unison.

"Darce? What do you say about watching the lion king while mommy cooks? " Ashton asked her, he knew I hated people in my way when I was trying to do things.

"Yeah!" She squealed and jumped onto Ashton.

I smiled at him and mouthed a 'thank you' before making my way into the kitchen. I switched on the oven and waited for it to heat up.

While I was waiting I pulled off the new found beauty which now belonged on my hand.

I studied it closely, admiring every edge and every curve. Just as I was about to place it back on my finger I noticed a scratch, was it a scratch? I pulled it closer to my face to investigate it.

It was an engravement, a song that Ashton always used to sing to me when we were in that awkward stage of friends who really really want to be together.

It read:  'And I will try to fix you.'

Tears pricked in the corners of my eyes, when me and Ashton started to get close, in that kind of way, my boyfriend had cheated on me and spread a whole lot of shit about me which caused all my friends to bully me and everyone to hate me.

Apart from Ash.

One night he was round my house, I was sobbing into his chest whilst telling him about all the shit that happened that day. We were lying down beside each other and I started to drift off to sleep. He was laying beside me tracing light circles on my arm, singing fix you by a band called Coldplay.

Tears were now streaming down my face, it's very strange because my high school years passed in a blur but this memory always sticks out.

I walked straight into the living room, Ashton stood up to see what was wrong with me.

I pulled him in for a massive hug.

"I found it." I whispered in his ear.

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WOAH ASHTON FEELS

I love this book what OMG nearly 900 reads you guys are crazyyyy

Anyways I love this song because Coldplay are my babys

I'm going on holiday Saturday so I won't be updating for a while but Hannah will be while I'm gone!

Hope your all having/had a great summer!

-Jay xoxo