All the way to Serenade her // Shawn Mendes

Chapter 18

Quinn's Pov

School was a colossal drag. I was basically a zombie, I slowly dragged my feet everywhere. I didn't pay attention to anything, or anyone. After my little incident with Shawn I was never the same person.

I didn't talk to anyone anymore, I completely isolated myself from the world. I even sat with completely new people. It's the sort of table where all these people come together they sit with each other, but they never talk to anyone there. They were the people you could say I "hung" around now.

It was now awkward for me to do anything now. Glances at people weren't just glances anymore, they were almost as a stare.

I never did turn in any assignments in class. I was the type of girl that had her life planned out. I knew what I wanted to do when I was going to college. That wasn't me anymore.

A lot of people noticed that as well. My aunt and uncle have been at each other's throats arguing about me. One of them would say something like,"Whats wrong with her, why can't we help her?" Or maybe "She won't talk anymore, what should we do?"

It breaks my heart when I hear them say that about me, but it's true I'm not the same. I could go back to that Quinn with a snap of my fingers. It was that easy for me, but a part of me won't let me go back to her. That's because I'm not her anymore.

Once and a while they would hand me these brochures about helping someone like me. I always turn them down. I don't need them, I know I can help myself. I just need time, everything needs time. It just so
happens I may need a lot of time.

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Today was just another day of school. The same boring thing that happens everyday.

Suddenly the speaker crackled to life. A male voice began to speak,"Seniors as you know. The year has been coming around fast. You know what that means it almost prom season. Anything goes so girls you can ask boys. Boys you can ask girls. The theme is Starry night. Expect shiny glimmering stars with a beautiful moonlight. More details to this will be announced later. For now please fill free to pick up a flyer in the front office. That is all today, Have a nice day."

Then the class began to become a sea of talking. People went to their friends talking about prom. How cheesy when girls began to squeal and talk about boys. I probably won't even go to prom. I don't see why I should.

Then the bell rang making me zip right out the door. The hallways began to clutter groups were just standing there. I hate when people began to walk then just stop out of nowhere. I usually just shove my way through the crowds. It was different today though. I couldn't help, but watch as everyone's fascination with prom. Already I could see pamphlets on the floor covered in shoe prints. 

The rest of the day was the same. During eight period Shawn began to frequently look at me giving me a warm smile. I faked one back just to reassure him I was fine. All I do now is lie to everyone.

Since today was Monday I usually stay at study hall in the library. Basically read all day. I occasionally do one or two problems of homework, but reading there is just for me to zone out.

When I finished my study hall group I went home. I pulled into my driveway, and got out. I open the front door, and stood there in shock. There were chairs everywhere, and people sitting in them.

No one noticed I walked in because they were all talking among them selves.

I cleared my throat to gain their attention. When the heard me they jumped a little.

My got Aunt walked towards me,"Honey we need to talk. We have brought all your friends here."

I scoffed when she said friends. Veronica is here, she is not my friend.

"What was that?" My aunt asked.

"Well you see. Veronica isn't my friend. We were friends but not anymore." I said.

Then I witness as the girl who I once called my friend got up. She stood tall in that spot.

I'm not going to lie, I have always admired how brave she could look. People must admire her because how tall she could stand.

Then again she isn't really that tall, but she could stand their with full attentions.

She began to walk towards me then stopped mid-way towards. "We used to be friends, remember?"

"Yeah I remember. Then you completely went wild on me then hated me. For what a little bit of Shawn's attention."

I saw her tense up at my statement then she went back to normal. "You know I can change. We can be friends. I apologize, okay? I know I was way over my head with that, but It sorta happened. I don't know."

"Clearly, you don't know. I can change too, but it seems like that's not happening either. I'm not that girl anymore. I'm not that forgiving little girl anymore." I say while folding my arms.

Everyone let a sigh out of frustration. I could tell that they were all done with me.

I felt a hand on my shoulder,"We know you aren't a little girl. Your a young women."

I backed away,"You aren't seeing the point. I know that I'm not a little girl anymore. I'm saying that I am not the Quinn from junior year. I have changed a lot."

"We are only trying to help. Quinn, you certainly have changed since I last saw you. Just let us talk to you." A familiar voice said.

I knew that voice,"Im trying Mom, but I can't."

I turned around, and gave her a hug. With tears on my eyelids, daring to spill out. I was in her embrace for a good minute letting the scent of Japanese Cherry Blossom grow on me.

When I pulled away I turned  around to the assorted living room with the chairs scattered. Everyone was looking at me.

Suddenly I was in the middle of a gigantic circle. With everyone surrounding me, then they tackled me in a hug.

We let go then stood in silence. I knew they were waiting on me to say something, but my idea of coming home and relaxing is to lay in bed. Not a convention. 

I cleared my throat again,"I'll try, okay? So are we done here?"

My Mom shook her head, "No, honey, we are here to help you and I think maybe we should go around the room. See what they all have to say."

"No, I'm sorry. I don't need to hear everyone else tell me what's wrong with myself when I already know." I trudge myself up the stairs. I refused to hear them. Maybe I should, but I won't. I stayed close by the stair to listen to them. There wasn't anything they could do.

My Aunt and Uncle stood by the door  thanking everyone for joining us. I sat on the stairs. Making sure they couldn't see me. I watched as everyone left, once everyone left I went straight to my room. 

I looked in the mirror to see that same girl. I took a bold move to crack a small smile. Then I thought there's that smiling Quinn everyone knows and loves. That made me smile even bigger even letting out a small giggle. Maybe I could change, but it's going to take time. There's nothing wrong with taking things slowly.

So there you go my loves. I'm going to try, and update at least every other day. Don't expect that though.

That's about it...