The exchange//SMUT WARNING

Chapter 36 Debut

Changing the song name to "Gashina" and stealing that catchy af song so if you wanna know the song and choreo search gashina on YT!!
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Ding ding ding

My alarm clock screamed from my bedside. I clicked it off easily. I had been up all night sitting and thinking. I ignored the conversation Jimin was trying to have with me through the door. Pleading with me to open it, telling me not to do anything stupid asking if I was okay asking if we could talk. I also ignored Taehyung who talked to Jimin quietly outside the door.
I thought and cried all night. About a lot of things that had been brimming up inside me. Lin, Taehyung, Jungkook and Jimin too. I thought about how badly I had treated Lin. How immature I had approached it and blocked his number. I didn't even break up with him like a normal person. Now it had been months since we'd talked.
Taehyung who had been a good friend to me was lost over a stupid stupid thing. And now he hates me and I don't belame him. Jungkook and I were best friends but now its going to be an awkward mess. The jealousy is the worst part. I'm such a jealous human, I can't ever be happy for others. I was jealous whwn Taehyung got with that bar maid. I was jealous everytime I see Jungkook with Minseo. But I should be happy. Jimin loves me so much. He tells me everyday. He thanks me for coming into his life and I'm still here being jealous. I hide it and try to forget it but its always there at the back of my mind. That bored feeling. That feeling of wanting something new. Theres nothing wrong with Jimin and I love him but this horrible immature part of me always craves someone new. I'm begining to wander and I hate it.

Knock knock

"Yoona? Are you alright? You know what day it is today right?" I hear Namjoons homely voice.
I nod in answed before realising he can't see me. "Yes." I reply.
I her him sigh in relief. "Do you want to come out?"
"Yes." I nod quietly as I brush invisible tears off my cheeks and go over and open the door. He smiles comfortingly.
"You okay?" He rubs my shoulder. Namjoon is so deep I can tell he knows its so much more condense then just some jokes made at a table.
I shake my head slightly. I'm really not.
"Come on, you must be starving." He offers his arm for a link. I hesitate slightly but then link and we head down stairs. My feet feel cold on the stairs. The same Tshirt and knickers both dirty but one from tears and sweat and one from Jungkook.
Everyone looks up slightly in relief when they see me. Everyone looks extremely worried and a bit disgusted by how I look. My hair is knotted and tangled. My face unclean and gloomy and my clothes are filthy dirty. Jimin rushes over to hug me immediately. His hands protect me and hold me tightly. "Please don't scare me like that again." He whispers in relief into my hair. I open my eyes and look at everyone from his shoulder. Jungkook looks down at his lap guiltily and clenches his jaw. I feel tears pricking because I know how awkward its going to be from now on.
We break apart slowly and I smile reassuringly. "I won't" I whisper as I let go of his hand. He looks at me unconvinced slightly but I head off to the fridge to get some food. I feel everyone looking at me as they continue their normal conversations.
I head to the table with my yogurt and sit beside jimin as I rest my head on his shoulder and spoonfeed myself.
"Nervous?" Jin smiles at me across the table.
"Oh- uhm yeah yeah so nervous." I laugh awkwardly. In truth I was. I hadnt seen the girls in two days and I felt like I just needed to be with them now. "You'll be fine don't worry." Hoseok nods as he eats his banana.
"Jungkook ah was the same so nervous, weren't you Jungkook."

"Mhm hm." Jungkook answers as he looks guiltily at his phone. "Minseo - I've got to take this." He doesn't look up as he leaves the table with his ohone ringing. I look down guiltily at the table.
"How strange." Taehgung says suspiciously as he catches my guilty look. I turn away to hide my extreme guilty blush.
"Whats so strange." Jimin asks.
"Jungkook he just - doesn't seem himself."
"Probably probably stayed up too late." I sniff trying to end the subject.
"Ohmm wonder what he was doing." Hoseok smirks. Namjoon gives him the dirtiest look I've ever seen.
"I better get ready." I finish as I blandly leave. I head upstairs slowly and tiredly.
"I-I'd love to come babe but I can't I really really can't." I pause outside Jungkooks room as I head to mine. I gently press my ear up against the bedroom door.
"I told you why - yes - I told you I have practice all day tommorrow."
I furrow my brow. Thats a lie, they all have the day of tommorrow. I lean in closer.
"You have to listen to me - Minseo, stop , You knew before we started this whole thing that I'm tied to my work-pah!!" Furious steps towards the door. I gasp as I jump back and walk quickly imto my bedroom to prepare my shower.